after so long...

Its been nearly 4 years...

times flies.... really flies... i never ever expect that he will contact me... i'm really surprise.... initially was tinking shld i reply his email, but eventually i click reply.... :) never expect that i can casually chit chat with him tru watsapp all night long... really triggers a lot of memories that me & him almost forgotten... kinda enjoy tat kind of sweetness of recalling the past... keke!

Second amazing thing was, i went out with him yest.... really really never expect tat i decide to go out dinner wf him.. haha! Even i myself still cannot accept my decision... i duno y got the i dun wana miss tis chance kind of feeling... so i finally say a yes after mid-day... 11th oct 2014

He insist to pick me but i rejected... reason being i wana give myself some buffer time to  turn down his date just in case i change my mind... from deciding want to go or not until wat to wear... skirt, dress or jeans.. but indeed & finally decided a dress wf scarf to obtain a femine look... after i decided my attire, he told me the place to meet & i went :) went to a place where i never go before in my life..... Bishan Park CANOPY!!!

First thing to jot down when i saw him.... He was 15mins Late!!!! But due to work la.... din blame him cos i was sitting in the park waiting until he appear in front of me in white jersey top & jeans... i felt happy when i saw him... not much of special feel but gotta kind of 熟悉又陌生 feeling... haha!! I agree.. i felt shy at first... but after awhile felt more normal.... chit chat the whole time sharing wf me his life for the past years & not forgetting the lame jokes... i duno why i dare to look into his eyes when listening to him.... but not too long lah... keke! Got off just before closing which was around 2145hrs... i felt abit too early and tot of going another place for movie or watever... but he kinda of wana send me back & btw, he look tired cos of the yawning... but he drove a very long way from Bishan towards my place... anyway i oso duno the way cos i can't see really well.... along the way we continue our chatting and he kept on trying to hold my hand.... and i kept on avoiding purposely... anyway, from leaving Canopy tat moment, he keep on trying to grab my hands or hold my waist lightly... i am fine wf the waist or back but hands i really can't help it.... i am not used to it.... i tink he felt my avoidance and nice enuff, he din push much.... in the car, he suddenly ask me how r u all these while... requesting me to tell him my life all these years.... i say nothing but he dun believe... so he drove to turf city, park his car and request me to tell him.... not much of a choice i share... din i told u before, i like his way of listrning... i duno y hav a kind of he is a very intelligent guy kind of feeling... i like talking to smart ppl.... like him! Gotta kind of being protected by him kind of feeling which i rarely experience.... we chit chat joke for 1.5hrs un the car... pure chating plus some holding hands  cos he kept on finding chance to hold my hand despite i kept on moving when talking... after awhile i felt more comfortable wf him holding my hand alittle longer but still cannot stop the avoiding habit... keke!  By the way, he is driving a 2 door Benz wf star gazing roof... nice posh car :) when he drove me home, he confidently insist that he remember where i stay... haha! I told him tat i will be amazed if he remember and at the same time i will be disappointed if he got it wrong... he confidently tell me let's bet... haha! He lost.... lost wf a dun wana lose kind of  look still refuse me to help him... but also good la... make the journey alittle longer... i hold on to his hand when leading him to my house and i ended wf a playful pinch.... but in the end he tickle me when i suppose to get down the car... i was pleading for mercy cos i'm afraid of ticklish... keke!! Finally i say bye & close the door... din got a chance to see the carplate number cos i dare not turn back... ... i duno y i kinda like the feeling when being wf him... maybe 很久没喜欢一个人了吧。   and i certified myself a loyal person... 一但喜欢了,始终不会改变。。终就还是喜欢。。when i got home, i'm still feeling the sweetness when with him... maybe long time nvr date le la... got a forgot how to date kind of feeling...... keke!!!  But anyway, i like it...

i am starting to change le... i used to not accept he is a divorcee.. but now i seems to accept le... is it a good sign?

Jus wana jot down tis day...11th Oct 2014

it's been more than 1 year...

Its been very very long that I update anything about myself...... Cos I was BUSY BUSY BUSY... Really BUSY.... Everybody complain.... not jus myself.... :)

My apology for the neglect of everybody.... I really can't help it.... I hope everyone understands :)

I wonder how many people still read blog... I admit i have not been reading until i forgot my password & login ID... Hahhah!

But what triggers me to write again.... its the old reason.... This afternoon I have alot of things in my mind so though of jotting down but I still seem to find any place to do that..... Until i recal iCyie Paradise..... :)

I was reading my posts back in 2009..... Seems like things only happen yesterday.... Hahaha!! All along, my topic are/will relate to the some old things... I realise its been 10 years.....

10 years & I still have the rapid heartbeat feeling when with him....Isn't it miracle?? I wana thank him for today cos yest I was merely telling him that I want to go JB to buy shoes and he literally request to bring me the next day. I was shock & happy. Initially he is going together with his friends to do car wash & etc but in the end he say he push his friend to other days cos not important... I was touched! Upon seeing him this morning, I can feel his tiredness but I tot it was just normal. I have no intention to shop ard cos I feel pai seh la.... So tot it will be a grab & go thing. But too bad, my shoe have no stock so he suggest that I look for other options.. U imagine a very tired man who just ended a 24hr work few hours ago without much peaceful rest shopping with you searching for you desired shoe... Giving you opinions at the same time telling you which one is beta.... I felt really blessed & blissful.... I'm serious! Someone who care for you, concern about you, put your word in the heart for 10years... And it's 2 way... Do you think it's Love? :)
That moment when I feed him pretzel that he bought for me, I feel really weird... I tink he felt weird too cos there was a moment of silence... I ignore the feeling cos I was enjoying to dote him and he did not reject anyway... :) Maybe he was enjoying too cos he totally forgot to do the most important thing before leaving JB....

Seriously, I dun dare to think too much....

In 1 week time, we will be in Macau at this time.... We are going on a holiday to Macau & HK for a trip... its been a long time I went holiday and this time round he requested... :) HOw can I resist.... Frenz ask me am I looking forward to it, I am really unsure.... But I know I will be happy la... Thats for sure... I named it a Love Trip :)

Gong Xi Fa Cai :)

Happy CNY to my dearie frenz!!!!
Hope that u all had enjoyed the long holiday & collected lotsa lotsa of ang bao....
As for me, I had a busy CNY... Went to many places to do visiting.. Every night sleeping at 3-4am.. Super tired!!
Just started work yest & still in CNY mood.. Haha! Can't put myself to work mode till nw... I tink I'm nt the only one rite... kekeke~

Anyway, I've got a new present during tis holiday... An iPod touch!!! Tis is my 1stiPod :) so happy... These days I was considering whether to get iPhone or iPod Touch cos it seems fun & useful.. Haha!! But my handphone contract is only due
nxt yr plus I heard tat iPhone batt not lasting etc.. So I decide on iPod Touch.. But it cost $400+, tats y I din buy... But then, I've got it now & I'm blogging wf it nw :)
so happy... I guess this will be classified under the "Things I can't leave home without it"
Lovin it!!! :) (although I'm still learning how to use)
kekeke~

Astonish News!!!!

I just got to know a very astonish news... My fren got married!!! I know its normal for a 36yrs old guy but it surprising cos he is a person whom is not into marriage & stuffs... he even dun believe in relationship at all...
And now, he's MARRIED!!! OMG....

Its really really surprising... I'm still surprised from the moment i bump into him at AMK Hub till now lo... But I've got to say his wife is dan lucky cos he is a really a very very Nice & sweet guy la... During Poly days & attachment, he thought me lots of stuffs for my fyp & helped me alot... I still can rememeber clearly how often I trouble him with all kinds of issues... I admitted we did have a little crush on each other... But it din kick start any intention for r/s... Afterall, he is those man that ladies can't resist.... (IMO)

But after few yrs, due to my bf dun like it, we are not able to contact each other... Thinking of that reason make me so sick... I shouldn't have stop contacting him becos of that toopid reason... I still remember that there is once I bump to him on street & i'm wf my bf... Then he only basically say "hi" to me lo... My bf was unhappy abt it the whole evening... wth!!! That result in me losing contact with such a great fren... Anyway, its past!! I'm happy that i bump to him once again after so many years... Still as charming & nice as I know... Gotten his number again :) Will meet his wife in the near future...


Another good guy that I've known was taken oredi.... 1 Good Guy lesser on Earth....
Happy Marriage Jack :)

Still cannot accept that he is married!!! Haha...

the diff

these days I felt the difference in him....
Not the usual him i used to noe... minus away the busy-ness of cos....
How shld I say...? Hmm... I really do not noe how to explain the diff in words...

Jus feeling sweet all over... :)

@ Foolish surprised

He send me an sms yest evening & told me that he received my parcel... Surprised, happy & touched!! Cos he never expect me to do this kind of stuffs... Haha~ I'm glad that I brighten his long gloomy work day :)

Can feel his appreciation & thankfulness from the smses he sent me... He say that he is too busy to call & thank me instantly... Thats y explains the sms... Was kinda disappointed though but I understand his busy schdule la... Busy is the main reason for that parcel... If not for busy-ness, I would not have do these kinda "foolish" stuffs...

:)

Went for Spa & massage yesterday... Felt so relieved aftertat~~ I guess I'm addicted to it le... Haha!! Felt so relax even though the pain during the massage.... But tis morning wake up feeling sore at my back area.. I guess that lady use too much strength oredi.... Anyway, I still happy about it...

I have an impt meeting today in noon.... Feel so nervous about it!! Duno whether am I really prepared~~

Hope everything went smoothly~

it has never change...

2nd Oct is a memorable date... I remember cos 2yrs bk, its the day i gotten my driving license without any confidence at all... I was quite shock when i got it!! :) And so coincident, my fren oso gotta her license on the same day after 2yrs... Haha! I still tell her 2nd Oct is a lucky day, sure pass one.. And really she did it!! Congrats :)

And on 2nd Oct 2009, i have done something ridiculous 'ägain'... ya, jus last fri... I tink i'm out of my mind... I've always been a perfectionist! I will not do things without a certain level of confidence as I'm a person who cannot accept failure... I've always wan things to be Zero defects... that's me!! But I wonder why can i cast aside every fear & worry to help him regardless of how terrified & nervous & how unconfident am I, just becos of 1 reason... He needs me... Becos of this reason, I would be as head strong as possible, as thick skin as whoever, as brave as i've nvr been, as insane as watever.... Jus to help him. With this reason, every problem doesn't seems as problematic & not that difficult as i thought it will be... Even though without confidence, I will still go ahead as I always believe that i can overcome all obstacles to help him... And it has always been like this... i realise that it has never change before since the 1st day i noe him... :)

2nd Oct 2009, i should say its adventurous... Haha! Aid reached within an hour... I din have time to tink through how did I manage to make it so fast until late night when i sat down peacefully to have a sip... I start to ask myself why is it so? is it kinda stupid? Haha~ I din bother to find an answer cos i know answer can nvr been found...

But this time round I felt alittle different in him... Maybe its out of gradtitude, maybe its out of thankful-ness... I really feel something different... Especially when he holded my hand... nobody muttered a single word to break the silence... I do not noe how to react other than enjoying that moment... Actually i should say I wouldn't bear to disturb the sweet moments bah :p
[I'm still enjoying the moment he hold my hand.... how i hope the time will stop at that moment & the journey never end....... :)]

During that moment, alot of things went tru my mind... i feel that there are things that he wanted to tell me or maybe i think too much... But i did not allow a chance to let him say even he hint for some private moments to talk... Can see his disappointment directly on his face but actually I felt regret immediately i answered him... But wat to do... Watever said cannot be taken back...

Sometimes i wonder how will it be if..............................
Will things be the same? ~ [~??????????????????????~]

Many Thanks~

Thanks for all my friends who send me birthday greetings...
Thanks my BANG galz for the cake & birthday song...
Thanks to all for the clubbing nite & sorry if I'm alittle nonsense tat nite~
Thanks to everyone =)

Thanks for those birthday treats..... its yummilicious!!
I tink its super memorable this year cos I had a very expensive steak this year.......
Just my steak alone cost $90+++ [Jaw-dropping experience when ordering] -_____________-"
U deserve a VERY BIG THANK YOU from me.... dun u?

Not forgetting to jot down that my birthday wish came true...
Thanks for the surprise on Sunday. I really din expect it at all~

090909 = unforgetable

喜临门 ah 喜临门

Yeah!! Bro is finally coming back frm his Brunei training... This time round will be the last one before he became a REAL COMMANDO rather than a Commando-to-be!! If i'm nt wrong the Red Beret Presentation ceremony will be held on 27th or 28th or 29th Jun.... Forgotten when is it liao!! Either one of these dates la... I tink we will be holding a celebration cos it coincide with dad's birthday which is on the 28th June & my little cousin's birthday which is on the 26th June... I guess we will be holding another family party again... =)

In addition, this month is so auspious!! There are 2 new born June babies in my family... 1 baby gal & 1 baby boy which is a "好" word... So happy!!

Moreover, my ah ma has fully recovered liao!! Why we know its becos right now she can talk as loud as before, behave as stubborn as before & complain as much as before... hahaha!! From the above observations, we claimed that she is FULLY recover... =) She can even dye her own hair & eyebrows lor... U see how 爱美 she was!!

** wondering when we he be back... **

happy gal =)

Jus chatted with him casually... I can't remember when is our last casual conversation oredi... But tinking back, its been sometime that he called me in such stress-free mode... I'm glad =) Got to noe that he is super busy these days cos he wasn't online since yest... So poor thing!

I'm very busy at work these days too... I even got no time to visit restroom or even drinking water... thats how busy i am!! But i tink its good la.. Cos being busy, at least i wun be bothering foolish stuffs... Haha! I describe my June 2009 as waiting month... Cos i've been waiting & waiting all these while.. I guess the waiting is going to end very soon... =)

I'm happy today!!

my Reddie 红红

Was longing for a black phone for 4yrs le... All these while my phone was white & pearl white & metallic white & wat ever white... I remember i named my phone 小白 the previous time... Haha,i noe its toopid!! Getting abit bored wf al the 白白 family le... This time round i actually saw this phone in my fav colours black & red...

So happy! =) Luv it...
This time round i tink i should call it 红红, Reddie...
I'm still reading 红红's diary cos i need to understand her more first in order to use her...

updateZz

i'll be boarding in another 5hrs 15mins...

sOooooooooo happie =)

Even though i'm in office, but my soul is oredi in Star Virgo liao....
Super holiday mood.... I learnt that "Never to work on the day of your holiday cos its equivilant as not working at all"

Anyway, If u happens to be at Harbour Front or Vivo & see some1 crazy waving hard at the balcony...... 80% chance it may be ME.... Take note on deck 9 k....

Just to update.....
i'm single... no potential bf... no potential target...
I dun mind if u wana intro some guys to me....
All are welcum =)

Interested please dial my mobile @9*******!!
(wahahahahaha....)

i'm coming Star Virgo~

Wee... I'm sOooo happy... My holiday wish was granted!!! =)

My holiday crave will be fulfilled on 1st April.... [Of cos tis not an april fool's joke]

Can't wait for it!!! feeling extremely excited~~~

Wahahahaha

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I'm oredi imagining myself lying on the comfy balcony in my room ,

enjoying the unlimited sun & sea breeze...

Doesn't it just sounds great!!

my first encounter

encountered my long waited unsightly 1st time over these years....
was longing for the chance but it jus din happen or maybe i dun allow it to happen...
Finally i did!! At least i've crossed my very own limit... [he say de...]

we are happy.... we cheers.... even though its unglam!!!

i will remember this day...

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19th Mar 2009, 4:05am

jus drop by to updatez..

I rested almost the whole of friday... Only busy thing was my phone... Kept ringing non-stop regarding work.. Argh~ Suppose to go JB for shopping & pedi mani service on sat but due to my unwell condition i decide cancelled it... Afraid that i might not be well enuff to go... But surprisingly i was okay on saturday.... hehe!! So my nice fren make appt for me to his fren shop for a FREE pedi & mani service which i all the while reject his offer... But seeing myself urgently required of pedi & mani, i just thickskin-ly go lor... Actually feel quite paiseh the whole process cos i dunno this manicurist & my fren was not wf me as he proceed to JB liao.... But after awhile i guess i'm immune to the paiseh-ness lor... The manicurist is a nice galz... Btw, her name is Winnie =) She help me to choose the colour which i feel its so sweet... Leaving the shop feeling satisfied & hapi =) Peeping at the price chart, i would say I will only patronise the shop if she charge me cheaper next visit... hehe!! luckily its Free one tis time... After that, i proceed to suling house for the bbq session with my galz.... All of us attended!! =) All thanks to my illness, if not i would hav missed the full attendance bbq session with them le... Despite the slight rain, we still hav lots of fun... Giggling, laughter & of cos lots lots of food.... And not forgetting i had a stressful eating session when Diana's bf sat beside me... Haha!! The gals commented that he is a very caring guy =) Hmm... for this i dunno wor... gotta ask diana le... hehe!!! Anyway, thanks for the ride hm... As for sunday, suppose to meet a fren but was cancelled, suppose to go town but was oso cancelled due to the heavy rain... End up i stayed hm to nua the whole day... And till 7pm then i recall that i have not ate anything for the whole day... Sigh~ [this is wat i call, Forgetful~]

updateZz

Been quite occupied these period of time... Cos seems that alot of things happening around...
Went to visit grandma alone on saturday cos i feel lost... I always like to visit her whenever i feel lost... Maybe I just wana hide at her place to temporary stay away from my problem & pamper by her... [Anyway her place is oso have LOTS of problems too] Glad to see that she is still as healthy for her age but i guess she isn't happy... But she chose her life to be like this... She told me that this is her last wish before she leave the world =) [Choy!!] Hope that she is able to overcum all those *****!!! I only wish for peacefullness at her place... Tats all~ Sounds simple but actually it isn't as simple...

After that went to pick Surong for lunch at Causeway Point.... We had a long talk over lunch... In fact we had a long chat over the phone the previous nite.... Chat about our past, our current & of cos complaining.... Although we seldom meet up or talk or even msn but we always dun fail to share our problems & hapi moments... She is 1 year older than me but sometimes she behave like a small gal & vice versa she can be a good listening ear & gave me good advice when i need... Just like a "Jie Jie". She encounter alot of things in her life as compared to mine... Totally different from mine.... Tats y i learn alot from her... =) We will always remember how we got to noe each other when we were in poly... How i create a very stupid man-made chance to break the ice between me & her... Haha!!
Then after our lunch, we went for alittle shopping cos shopping queen wana buy things... Somemore influence me to spend $$ too... I bough OPI nail polish... so expensive but its very pretty lo... Also bought the drip dry solution to overcum my problem of waiting for nail polish to be totally dry... Its works wonder!!! i like... So now i wun have nail colour smudging problems & dun need to waste hours to wait for it to be totally dry liao... Wahahah~
Spend my whole sunday accompanying mummy cos daddy is away for business trip... Suppose to meet a fren in noon but... argh~ Treat mummy dinner & then did some shopping again before we head home... [Spend alot these days... Pocket got a BIG BIG hole]
Btw, just to inform my frens that the KOSE mask sample redemption is OUT OF STOCK islandwide liao... Dun bother to purposely go redeem cos the sale person tell me its TOO OVERWHELMING liao!!! sigh~

hurhur.... Its raining heavily now.... I wonder how am I able to drive till Airport to fetch dad... His flight is arriving at 2pm... Rain rain go away....

beautiful things

Was browsing thru the web & saw the news on this albino dolphin...

I feel that this is what a Pink Dolphin should look like than those Greyish pink with polka dots one..... As compared tis is so much cuter, so much more stunning & Lovable... [I dunno y when i saw this pic, i felt "Love is in the air"]

Upon reading the news, it reminds me of a picture i took last 2 weeks when i was out to lunch... I find it rather interest or maybe i'm just being 'Sua gu' la... Have anyone seen this on the road?

''A pinky cow taxi''

I tink i'll be rather happy if i flag it... Haha! And last but not least... Its a pic of rainbow!!! tis was taken jus outside my doorstep... Compared to others taken on ground, i'm at least 21 storey nearer than u peepz.... Haha!!

Fine weather please...

Today its Samper's Photo-taking day.... So i was praying for a fine day since morning so as to let them have a pleasant & enjoyable photo-taking session... My dad oso say that it wun rain today.. so i guess it wun bah... (*_*) Gal, enjoy dun forget to show me the snap shots taken by ur polaroid k...


Some updates of myself:
Fri I met up with Pearl for my fav steamboat dinner... Btw, its her who initiate it lor... Somemore she got fitting the next day... Pengz! After tat Suling oso came to join us to chit chat... As usual, alot of laughters... Haha!!
I had a busy Saturday... Met up with Suling, Ade & Yiru for movie & lunch... Tinking back its been sometime that i saw Ade & Yiru... Glad to noe that their r doing rather fine except busy... Then proceed to meet up Surong for shopping & chit chat session... Suppose to meet another fren but i last min cancel it cos i felt that Surong wasn't doing right... So i accompanied her & indeed she got loads of things to tell me... Although, we seldom meet each other but as good frens, we can strongly sense how each other feel... Especially when they r unhappy/troubled... Dun u? Anyway, due to the cancellation... I had cold war with my fren for 2 days... But now, Okay le la... =)
Sunday, i forgot what happen liao... Cos i was not in mood...
Monday & tuesday were a busy one too... Cos i had a Top Secret mission to completed... Shh~~
And my yoga class yest... I strain my hamstring... Very painful~

iCe's Yoga Day

Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday &

YOGADAY

Yoga starts today =)

Looking forward for my 1st yoga pose....