Its been very very long that I update anything about myself...... Cos I was BUSY BUSY BUSY... Really BUSY.... Everybody complain.... not jus myself.... :)
My apology for the neglect of everybody.... I really can't help it.... I hope everyone understands :)
I wonder how many people still read blog... I admit i have not been reading until i forgot my password & login ID... Hahhah!
But what triggers me to write again.... its the old reason.... This afternoon I have alot of things in my mind so though of jotting down but I still seem to find any place to do that..... Until i recal iCyie Paradise..... :)
I was reading my posts back in 2009..... Seems like things only happen yesterday.... Hahaha!! All along, my topic are/will relate to the some old things... I realise its been 10 years.....
10 years & I still have the rapid heartbeat feeling when with him....Isn't it miracle?? I wana thank him for today cos yest I was merely telling him that I want to go JB to buy shoes and he literally request to bring me the next day. I was shock & happy. Initially he is going together with his friends to do car wash & etc but in the end he say he push his friend to other days cos not important... I was touched! Upon seeing him this morning, I can feel his tiredness but I tot it was just normal. I have no intention to shop ard cos I feel pai seh la.... So tot it will be a grab & go thing. But too bad, my shoe have no stock so he suggest that I look for other options.. U imagine a very tired man who just ended a 24hr work few hours ago without much peaceful rest shopping with you searching for you desired shoe... Giving you opinions at the same time telling you which one is beta.... I felt really blessed & blissful.... I'm serious! Someone who care for you, concern about you, put your word in the heart for 10years... And it's 2 way... Do you think it's Love? :)
That moment when I feed him pretzel that he bought for me, I feel really weird... I tink he felt weird too cos there was a moment of silence... I ignore the feeling cos I was enjoying to dote him and he did not reject anyway... :) Maybe he was enjoying too cos he totally forgot to do the most important thing before leaving JB....
Seriously, I dun dare to think too much....
In 1 week time, we will be in Macau at this time.... We are going on a holiday to Macau & HK for a trip... its been a long time I went holiday and this time round he requested... :) HOw can I resist.... Frenz ask me am I looking forward to it, I am really unsure.... But I know I will be happy la... Thats for sure... I named it a Love Trip :)
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Monday, October 12, 2009
"Quote of the day"
"My Pleasure is pressure..."
i feel that this doesn't really suits....
i'm more likely to be "My Pressure is my pleasure" kind of gal...
Hahahahahahaha~
i feel that this doesn't really suits....
i'm more likely to be "My Pressure is my pleasure" kind of gal...
Hahahahahahaha~
Sunday, October 4, 2009
it has never change...
2nd Oct is a memorable date... I remember cos 2yrs bk, its the day i gotten my driving license without any confidence at all... I was quite shock when i got it!! :) And so coincident, my fren oso gotta her license on the same day after 2yrs... Haha! I still tell her 2nd Oct is a lucky day, sure pass one.. And really she did it!! Congrats :)
And on 2nd Oct 2009, i have done something ridiculous 'ägain'... ya, jus last fri... I tink i'm out of my mind... I've always been a perfectionist! I will not do things without a certain level of confidence as I'm a person who cannot accept failure... I've always wan things to be Zero defects... that's me!! But I wonder why can i cast aside every fear & worry to help him regardless of how terrified & nervous & how unconfident am I, just becos of 1 reason... He needs me... Becos of this reason, I would be as head strong as possible, as thick skin as whoever, as brave as i've nvr been, as insane as watever.... Jus to help him. With this reason, every problem doesn't seems as problematic & not that difficult as i thought it will be... Even though without confidence, I will still go ahead as I always believe that i can overcome all obstacles to help him... And it has always been like this... i realise that it has never change before since the 1st day i noe him... :)
2nd Oct 2009, i should say its adventurous... Haha! Aid reached within an hour... I din have time to tink through how did I manage to make it so fast until late night when i sat down peacefully to have a sip... I start to ask myself why is it so? is it kinda stupid? Haha~ I din bother to find an answer cos i know answer can nvr been found...
But this time round I felt alittle different in him... Maybe its out of gradtitude, maybe its out of thankful-ness... I really feel something different... Especially when he holded my hand... nobody muttered a single word to break the silence... I do not noe how to react other than enjoying that moment... Actually i should say I wouldn't bear to disturb the sweet moments bah :p
[I'm still enjoying the moment he hold my hand.... how i hope the time will stop at that moment & the journey never end....... :)]
During that moment, alot of things went tru my mind... i feel that there are things that he wanted to tell me or maybe i think too much... But i did not allow a chance to let him say even he hint for some private moments to talk... Can see his disappointment directly on his face but actually I felt regret immediately i answered him... But wat to do... Watever said cannot be taken back...
Sometimes i wonder how will it be if..............................
Will things be the same? ~ [~??????????????????????~]
And on 2nd Oct 2009, i have done something ridiculous 'ägain'... ya, jus last fri... I tink i'm out of my mind... I've always been a perfectionist! I will not do things without a certain level of confidence as I'm a person who cannot accept failure... I've always wan things to be Zero defects... that's me!! But I wonder why can i cast aside every fear & worry to help him regardless of how terrified & nervous & how unconfident am I, just becos of 1 reason... He needs me... Becos of this reason, I would be as head strong as possible, as thick skin as whoever, as brave as i've nvr been, as insane as watever.... Jus to help him. With this reason, every problem doesn't seems as problematic & not that difficult as i thought it will be... Even though without confidence, I will still go ahead as I always believe that i can overcome all obstacles to help him... And it has always been like this... i realise that it has never change before since the 1st day i noe him... :)
2nd Oct 2009, i should say its adventurous... Haha! Aid reached within an hour... I din have time to tink through how did I manage to make it so fast until late night when i sat down peacefully to have a sip... I start to ask myself why is it so? is it kinda stupid? Haha~ I din bother to find an answer cos i know answer can nvr been found...
But this time round I felt alittle different in him... Maybe its out of gradtitude, maybe its out of thankful-ness... I really feel something different... Especially when he holded my hand... nobody muttered a single word to break the silence... I do not noe how to react other than enjoying that moment... Actually i should say I wouldn't bear to disturb the sweet moments bah :p
[I'm still enjoying the moment he hold my hand.... how i hope the time will stop at that moment & the journey never end....... :)]
During that moment, alot of things went tru my mind... i feel that there are things that he wanted to tell me or maybe i think too much... But i did not allow a chance to let him say even he hint for some private moments to talk... Can see his disappointment directly on his face but actually I felt regret immediately i answered him... But wat to do... Watever said cannot be taken back...
Sometimes i wonder how will it be if..............................
Will things be the same? ~ [~??????????????????????~]
Friday, July 24, 2009
Rubbish
Aren't feeling good these days... Had a mixture of feelings.. good & bad... These days other than busy work life, my mind kept asking me this qns... "Do i deserve all these?"
Alot of things happen... I do not know whether to categorize it as an impt date or jus another day cos i myself do not know what & why am I doing all these stupid stuffs... I actually did something which I dare not do over these period of 7years [nt convenient to write it here]... I'm shock that I actually can do it (at least for these few mths)... Haha! Frens dun believe me at all & kept on asking why & some even tease tat eventually it wun prolong... Anyway, i din hope to last forever, jus wana test out how long can it last to maintain like current... I considered it a MAJOR EVENT in my life cos 7yrs ago was a turning point of my life... I suppose its another turning point in my life again.... Probably something good =)
Ever since i made this decision which was like 2mths ago, things are doing pretty well, just a little bit of trying to get used of my new life... Only until early July, i'm more used to it! All i could say is that "I AM ALL OUT OF MY MIND". I wonder am I too bored or jus wana add sparks to my life or wana challenge my life... At times I feel that I'm totally shitty cos I do not even acknowledge watever i've done...
This post is totaly rubbish cos its getting no where... Just like me...
I just wana find a place to vent my frustrations & possible a place to cry out loud...
i'm afraid that its becos of my decision that cause my terrible & ridiculous actions!!
Sorry to cause confusion
Alot of things happen... I do not know whether to categorize it as an impt date or jus another day cos i myself do not know what & why am I doing all these stupid stuffs... I actually did something which I dare not do over these period of 7years [nt convenient to write it here]... I'm shock that I actually can do it (at least for these few mths)... Haha! Frens dun believe me at all & kept on asking why & some even tease tat eventually it wun prolong... Anyway, i din hope to last forever, jus wana test out how long can it last to maintain like current... I considered it a MAJOR EVENT in my life cos 7yrs ago was a turning point of my life... I suppose its another turning point in my life again.... Probably something good =)
Ever since i made this decision which was like 2mths ago, things are doing pretty well, just a little bit of trying to get used of my new life... Only until early July, i'm more used to it! All i could say is that "I AM ALL OUT OF MY MIND". I wonder am I too bored or jus wana add sparks to my life or wana challenge my life... At times I feel that I'm totally shitty cos I do not even acknowledge watever i've done...
This post is totaly rubbish cos its getting no where... Just like me...
I just wana find a place to vent my frustrations & possible a place to cry out loud...
i'm afraid that its becos of my decision that cause my terrible & ridiculous actions!!
Sorry to cause confusion
Friday, June 19, 2009
bothered by FYI
Jus receive his FYI msg saying that he flying again to another place which i dunno where is it until i search the Atlas... Why i say its a 'FYI' msg cos he emphasize tat its just for me to noe... Am i reading too into his words or is it that its jus merely for my info only?? Actually I do not noe how to react after reading it... thats y i choose to write down my frustrations here... I'm actually feeling alittle angry about it, i wonder y...
Should i tink in the way whereby:
1) I should be glad tat he still got the heart to inform me about his whereabts despite his BUSY schdule
2) WTH! What he mean by FYI only?? does it mean i couldn't ask!!!
3) Ok! Anyway i dun bother...
1, 2 or 3??? But i noe it wun be (3) anymore cos if i dun bother, why i bother to write it here ley?
If its (2), i believe it will definitely pick a long distance fight.
So i guess (1) is the best & most optimistic choice rite?
But FYI, i'm a born pessimist...
OKie! i've my destination... Lotsa of impt work to do than bothering these nonsense... Hope that i can make it in time for tonight's Steamboat wf the Sam & Pearl's Wedding gangs...
Should i tink in the way whereby:
1) I should be glad tat he still got the heart to inform me about his whereabts despite his BUSY schdule
2) WTH! What he mean by FYI only?? does it mean i couldn't ask!!!
3) Ok! Anyway i dun bother...
1, 2 or 3??? But i noe it wun be (3) anymore cos if i dun bother, why i bother to write it here ley?
If its (2), i believe it will definitely pick a long distance fight.
So i guess (1) is the best & most optimistic choice rite?
But FYI, i'm a born pessimist...
OKie! i've my destination... Lotsa of impt work to do than bothering these nonsense... Hope that i can make it in time for tonight's Steamboat wf the Sam & Pearl's Wedding gangs...
Friday, June 12, 2009
Enjoy ur Life
Sometimes i feel these being busy is a kind of enjoyment as time pass very fast...
Sometimes i feel lonely can be a kind of enjoyment too... Although i dislike loneliness but at times i do put myself in lonely box to enjoy peacefulness & quiet moments... [Psycho me!!]
Sometimes i love silence so i will just shut off my phone to avoid being contact. Its pretty amazing feeling u noe... Something like u r just on ur own & not able to seek help or watever!! i dunno how to describe la... Anyway, this is one kind of method i use to enjoy moments of my world. I feel that life has too much unnecessary stuffs that make it too complicated for us live our life. Why not make it simple if u can? Being simple can be a kind of happiness too... I feel that we should learn to appreciate & enjoy simplicity so that we will live our life & indeed happier...
An excuse to enjoy ur life :
Life is short & moreover we only live once....
Sometimes i feel lonely can be a kind of enjoyment too... Although i dislike loneliness but at times i do put myself in lonely box to enjoy peacefulness & quiet moments... [Psycho me!!]
Sometimes i love silence so i will just shut off my phone to avoid being contact. Its pretty amazing feeling u noe... Something like u r just on ur own & not able to seek help or watever!! i dunno how to describe la... Anyway, this is one kind of method i use to enjoy moments of my world. I feel that life has too much unnecessary stuffs that make it too complicated for us live our life. Why not make it simple if u can? Being simple can be a kind of happiness too... I feel that we should learn to appreciate & enjoy simplicity so that we will live our life & indeed happier...
An excuse to enjoy ur life :
Life is short & moreover we only live once....
Monday, June 8, 2009
Mountain Turtle iCe!!
These days I've been google-ing world map... Maziam attending geography lessons... Learning about alot of countries & where is it located. I never know where the is US where is Europe where is UK... Haha! When reading the map then i noe...
Never knew that Los Angeles is 15hrs later than Singapore... Never knew that Santa Monica has nice beautiful beaches. Never knew that London is nearer to Singapore compared to LA....
Searching lots of airport website to check on flights etc... And got to find out that Changi Airport site is way much more informative as compared to US & London de... I never expect that actually, thats y i find it amazing... =)
Went to Changi Airpot last fri & sat consecutively... Fri was to send bro cos he went Brunei for training.. Stay in there for few hours cos i had dinner with lots of Commando-to-be... Felt so weird cos they are pretty young botaks!! I was wondering how can these chaps protect our country... Hahaha!! Sat was to send fren's car & at the same time pick up him... This joker came back from US & He even prepare me a mask cos he say just in case & expect me to wear when in car!! i was like (-_____-)"
Anyway, these days was rather homely & sticking to PC... Getting abit bored le... I afraid spider webs are starting to grow on me le... So just now I actually force myself out of the house reluctantly to go out... Went to walk ard & end up bought 2 pairs of shoes... 1 super high black heels & 1 emerald blue flats... Like it lots!!!
I feel that i have fetish with Emerald Blue stuffs... =) [Will take pic tml]
Happy Gal...
Never knew that Los Angeles is 15hrs later than Singapore... Never knew that Santa Monica has nice beautiful beaches. Never knew that London is nearer to Singapore compared to LA....
Searching lots of airport website to check on flights etc... And got to find out that Changi Airport site is way much more informative as compared to US & London de... I never expect that actually, thats y i find it amazing... =)
Went to Changi Airpot last fri & sat consecutively... Fri was to send bro cos he went Brunei for training.. Stay in there for few hours cos i had dinner with lots of Commando-to-be... Felt so weird cos they are pretty young botaks!! I was wondering how can these chaps protect our country... Hahaha!! Sat was to send fren's car & at the same time pick up him... This joker came back from US & He even prepare me a mask cos he say just in case & expect me to wear when in car!! i was like (-_____-)"
Anyway, these days was rather homely & sticking to PC... Getting abit bored le... I afraid spider webs are starting to grow on me le... So just now I actually force myself out of the house reluctantly to go out... Went to walk ard & end up bought 2 pairs of shoes... 1 super high black heels & 1 emerald blue flats... Like it lots!!!
I feel that i have fetish with Emerald Blue stuffs... =) [Will take pic tml]
Happy Gal...
I hope I could sleep well today instead of waiting again
Thursday, April 16, 2009
mood
disappointed...
dishearted...
angry... i believe the other party is angry too...
but after much tinking... i ask myself "wat for...?"
Like what he always say, we are the same kind...
cos in the end we can't bear to get angry with each other...
dishearted...
angry... i believe the other party is angry too...
but after much tinking... i ask myself "wat for...?"
Like what he always say, we are the same kind...
cos in the end we can't bear to get angry with each other...
Monday, March 30, 2009
Busy March
Was looking at my organizer & checking some personal stuffs...
Found out that my March calander was fully filled with lotsa scribblings, be it personal or work... Seems that i had a busy month... Alot of happenings in March 2009... Neither good nor bad...
[2more days to my Cruise Holiday *grin*]
Sadness is a kind of process for human to overcum which guides u to another happy path leading to happiness.
--- For u, my fren! =)
Found out that my March calander was fully filled with lotsa scribblings, be it personal or work... Seems that i had a busy month... Alot of happenings in March 2009... Neither good nor bad...
[2more days to my Cruise Holiday *grin*]
Sadness is a kind of process for human to overcum which guides u to another happy path leading to happiness.
--- For u, my fren! =)
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
holiday craving
Was yearning for a holiday trip lately... Feel that i should rest my soul abit...
Even went for a 1day trip on sunday for casino ship to satisfy myself alittle of the holiday feel even though i dun like to gamble... But came back feeling sad cos i lose $$$ & fell sick when i came back.... Damn it!!! i just wana say "赌博真可怕......."
Nearly faint in office yesterday due to the 39.2۫C high fever & giddiness... Was not able to go doctor myself cos i afraid i faint on street. But anyway, i'm well again... Alive & kicking tis morning cos i slept at 7pm last nite till tis morning 7.30am.... =)
Oh ya... I saw the real Star Cruise Virgo on sunday.... sOoo luxurious & nice!!! I remember the last time i nearly went for Star Virgo but end up we change our mind to Taipei instead cos tot that cruise would be abit boring... But i guess i'm worng bah... How boring can this BIG thing be?? Never had a chance to have a full view of Star Virgo before... Din noe it was so huge lor.... i should say its DAMN HUGE!!! sOoooooo tempting to go on cruise........
hmm~
Even went for a 1day trip on sunday for casino ship to satisfy myself alittle of the holiday feel even though i dun like to gamble... But came back feeling sad cos i lose $$$ & fell sick when i came back.... Damn it!!! i just wana say "赌博真可怕......."
Nearly faint in office yesterday due to the 39.2۫C high fever & giddiness... Was not able to go doctor myself cos i afraid i faint on street. But anyway, i'm well again... Alive & kicking tis morning cos i slept at 7pm last nite till tis morning 7.30am.... =)
Oh ya... I saw the real Star Cruise Virgo on sunday.... sOoo luxurious & nice!!! I remember the last time i nearly went for Star Virgo but end up we change our mind to Taipei instead cos tot that cruise would be abit boring... But i guess i'm worng bah... How boring can this BIG thing be?? Never had a chance to have a full view of Star Virgo before... Din noe it was so huge lor.... i should say its DAMN HUGE!!! sOoooooo tempting to go on cruise........
hmm~
Friday, February 6, 2009
i wish... i wish for a piggie~~
sudden urge to have a pet... a Guinea Piggie... they are so lovable & cute... Especially the "wheecking" noise they make... Hahahaha!! i din noe such small thing make so much noise de... [u can find lots of it in youtube]
hmm.. Din noe anyone with experience with guinea piggies... so i'm still collecting details about them... wanting to noe more about them.... Tink will be dropping by pet shop these days to check it out... If anyone noe abt info abt guinea pigs, pls let me noe k...
Monday, February 2, 2009
fated to have a chance to cross the line again
after so many years, i'm surprised tat i still dare not face him...
eventually he appeared in front of me out from nowhere... as like before, my 1st reaction was to turnaway & trying to hide cos I was struggling between my emotions... [till then still undecisive or maybe i dare not comment bah] is it fate? is it wat called pre-destinated? I dunno am i right to give tis chance to face him again... but i never tot tat me & him can sit down to chat again... maybe its becos 2 little rascals are around... but luckily the rascals are there, if not it will be rather awkward bah... i suppose..
din chat much... Unanswered still remain unanswered, questions asked by him were mostly avoided... He knew i wouldn't answer him & neither would i wana hear a thing about him & her... the whole session was about Jewel & Javen... =) Glad to see that they have grown up alot...
u noe wat... i actually i can't bear to leave but i noe i dun hav a choice...
Tinking back, if jewel din call me out on street, there wouldn't be tis chance... a gd chance or a bad one... i oso dunno...
before i leave, he told me that he haven change his number... And u noe wat i say...
"ya... everything will still remain unchange..."
he replied me the same thing too...
I hope he read the hidden meaning in it...
eventually he appeared in front of me out from nowhere... as like before, my 1st reaction was to turnaway & trying to hide cos I was struggling between my emotions... [till then still undecisive or maybe i dare not comment bah] is it fate? is it wat called pre-destinated? I dunno am i right to give tis chance to face him again... but i never tot tat me & him can sit down to chat again... maybe its becos 2 little rascals are around... but luckily the rascals are there, if not it will be rather awkward bah... i suppose..
din chat much... Unanswered still remain unanswered, questions asked by him were mostly avoided... He knew i wouldn't answer him & neither would i wana hear a thing about him & her... the whole session was about Jewel & Javen... =) Glad to see that they have grown up alot...
u noe wat... i actually i can't bear to leave but i noe i dun hav a choice...
Tinking back, if jewel din call me out on street, there wouldn't be tis chance... a gd chance or a bad one... i oso dunno...
before i leave, he told me that he haven change his number... And u noe wat i say...
"ya... everything will still remain unchange..."
he replied me the same thing too...
I hope he read the hidden meaning in it...
Monday, January 19, 2009
is CNY ard the corner??
is it just me or am i the odd one to NOT feel the Chinese New Year mood??
I strongly dun feel the CNY mood ley... I tink tis year's CNY is super quiet... Maybe its the economy bah... Somemore chu 3 most people will start work liao... Just chatted with Ade & got to know that she start work on chu 2 liao... OMG.. Pity her!!
Anyway, i tink most people are busy tis week preparing CNY rite.... Just like me, busy cleaning up the house, buy new stuffs, buy new clothes etc etc...
Talking abt cleaning up house, I'm super duper hot lor... Mummy scolded me yest saying that i din help out... WTH!! Since last 2 weeks, I've been staying at home cleaning the living room, didi's room & toilet bit & bit while both dad & mum are watching tv... [i clean till all my nails are broken & hav no choice but to cut it short... sigh~]
For my room i only start on saturday cos i was too busy cleaning other places!! And she accuse me tat i din help... So sad! I wonder y she always dun appreciate what i've done.... I really dunno wat i have done wrong... She always show favourism between didi & me so CLEARLY!!! Jus like yest, didi complain to her that she bought new curtain for her own room & not for didi's room & my room... As for me, i din complain la.. Just ask her where she bought her curtains & she request me to go buy myself... So I intend to search for curtains for the same series for the whole house except her room cos she hav liao mah... Until yest, didi just complain to her that she bought new curtains for herself & instead for us.... Just a simple remark & she went all the way to buy for him... I dunno wat does it shows or maybe i'm looking too into the issue... Haiz~
Anyway, hope that tis week will be smooth one... avoid & prevent quarrelling... And most importantly try to enjoy the CNY mood if available...
I strongly dun feel the CNY mood ley... I tink tis year's CNY is super quiet... Maybe its the economy bah... Somemore chu 3 most people will start work liao... Just chatted with Ade & got to know that she start work on chu 2 liao... OMG.. Pity her!!
Anyway, i tink most people are busy tis week preparing CNY rite.... Just like me, busy cleaning up the house, buy new stuffs, buy new clothes etc etc...
Talking abt cleaning up house, I'm super duper hot lor... Mummy scolded me yest saying that i din help out... WTH!! Since last 2 weeks, I've been staying at home cleaning the living room, didi's room & toilet bit & bit while both dad & mum are watching tv... [i clean till all my nails are broken & hav no choice but to cut it short... sigh~]
For my room i only start on saturday cos i was too busy cleaning other places!! And she accuse me tat i din help... So sad! I wonder y she always dun appreciate what i've done.... I really dunno wat i have done wrong... She always show favourism between didi & me so CLEARLY!!! Jus like yest, didi complain to her that she bought new curtain for her own room & not for didi's room & my room... As for me, i din complain la.. Just ask her where she bought her curtains & she request me to go buy myself... So I intend to search for curtains for the same series for the whole house except her room cos she hav liao mah... Until yest, didi just complain to her that she bought new curtains for herself & instead for us.... Just a simple remark & she went all the way to buy for him... I dunno wat does it shows or maybe i'm looking too into the issue... Haiz~
Anyway, hope that tis week will be smooth one... avoid & prevent quarrelling... And most importantly try to enjoy the CNY mood if available...
Friday, January 16, 2009
Wish Mr & Mrs Tang "white head till old" =)
jus received the news this morning that my ex-boss got married wf my ex-colleague =)
[One talented & creative nice bachelor & a beautifully sweet bak kut teh princess]
felt happy for them & oso abit surprising...
u must be tinking y surprising rite...
Reason being, 4yrs ago i got to noe the bride as a 'Mrs XXX'... I clearly remembered cos she was extremely gorgeous & dun look like a mid 30's lady to me & leading a happy marriage life as witness with my eyes...
but then....................
I always feel that relationship is so fragile & brittle...
everybody must carefully maintain it k...
Hope that she found her real happiness now...
Blissful marriage Mr & Mrs Tang
[One talented & creative nice bachelor & a beautifully sweet bak kut teh princess]
felt happy for them & oso abit surprising...
u must be tinking y surprising rite...
Reason being, 4yrs ago i got to noe the bride as a 'Mrs XXX'... I clearly remembered cos she was extremely gorgeous & dun look like a mid 30's lady to me & leading a happy marriage life as witness with my eyes...
but then....................
I always feel that relationship is so fragile & brittle...
everybody must carefully maintain it k...
Hope that she found her real happiness now...
Blissful marriage Mr & Mrs Tang
Thursday, January 15, 2009
L.A.Z.Y
these days prefer reading than writing.... maybe jus another excuse of being lazy....
just happens to read & recalling about my year 2008 from all sorts of source... i wonder y i always experience different aspect when reading my past... I always realise that i missed those small little actions that may lead to a different conclusion... but y din i realise in real time?
but what to do... we gotta look ahead than back... Indeed, i had a good 2008...
feeling rather emotionally affected....
just happens to read & recalling about my year 2008 from all sorts of source... i wonder y i always experience different aspect when reading my past... I always realise that i missed those small little actions that may lead to a different conclusion... but y din i realise in real time?
but what to do... we gotta look ahead than back... Indeed, i had a good 2008...
feeling rather emotionally affected....
Friday, December 19, 2008
trying to accept
i hate comparison... when there is comparison, there is always good & bad... which tends lead to happy & unhappiness... Since in this case, why bother to compare in the 1st place?? i conclude it as human nature bah... I'm nt a person who bother good or bad de... So in short , i always dislike comparison/dun bother about the comparison... I feel that watever it is, as long as I'm happy jiu hao lo... Wat so big deal!! but but but... Yesterday i tried out the comparison test out of my curiosity... I tot i wun mind the outcome, wun mind the words & truth even though its rather surface..... I'm wrong!! Human nature played a joke on me... At 1st i'm okay, but after further tinking, i feel so bad... Disappointment grows rapidly...
i wonder how u people feel when u gt to know how ''much'' urself worth in ur good good fren whereas tis good good fren worth extremely dear to urself... Truthfully, i dunno how to react... I wonder is it that i expect too much or is it tat i'm not prepared for what i suppose to hear/feel... I'm just not able not to take those words too hard... Even though it may be jus a casual remark or suppose to be a joke... It kept lingering around my mind... Maybe i take tis friendship too seriously bah... in the means of trying to accept...
For a moment, i nearly burst into tears....
[i tink its going to be time of the month liao... tats y so moody! ]
Thursday, October 23, 2008
some moments for myself
i just stop my clock for a moment to let myself rest alittle & enjoy some moments for myself...
To bluff myself tat i've got alittle moment to enjoy my nicely freshly brewed coffee & enjoying raindrops view on my glass window & surroundings...
Sometimes i do believe in casting away everything & enjoy "THAT" very moment...
It helps to rest my mind & soul to have a feel of time stopping...
It helps to rest my mind & soul to have a feel of time stopping...
It feels great u noe.... Especially when u are nt in right state....
at least it works for me~
ya... indeed i'm not in right mood today... just like the weather...
hazy... drizzling... moody...
Thursday, September 11, 2008
some thoughts...
yesterday nite i poured out so many things to my fren..... these things have been kept deeply in my heart & i dun even bother/hardly share with my frenz cos i feel i'm crazily insane.... I think no one will bother to listen to me bah... i wonder why i talk so much yesterday & din even care to bother what i have said... =_=''
in the end, my fren just tell me...
"Ah mui, u are too young to say those stuffs liao.... U still have a long long way to go tru...."
Really gt a long long way to go mah??? this makes me recall back when i was 16... a feng shui master told me that i will live till at least 80 or 90 years old & lead a wonderfully happy & blissful life.... ONLY IF i pass tru the major crisis in my 20s... IF NOT, i wun live pass my 30s....
Hmm... So sometimes i always doubt i have a long long way to go even though i'm not that superstitious...
[having headache day 3 --- panadol dun help!]
in the end, my fren just tell me...
"Ah mui, u are too young to say those stuffs liao.... U still have a long long way to go tru...."
Really gt a long long way to go mah??? this makes me recall back when i was 16... a feng shui master told me that i will live till at least 80 or 90 years old & lead a wonderfully happy & blissful life.... ONLY IF i pass tru the major crisis in my 20s... IF NOT, i wun live pass my 30s....
Hmm... So sometimes i always doubt i have a long long way to go even though i'm not that superstitious...
[having headache day 3 --- panadol dun help!]
Thursday, September 4, 2008
his birthday card
i received an oversea mail today...
i was surprised to see a birthday card from him...
Complicated feelings!! i dunno shld i be happy or dishearten or disappointed or sad...
Happy becos he remember & care to send me greetings from so far away & telling me he is fine...
Dishearten becos our simple wish to celebrate my birthday, not being able to be come true...
Disappointed becos he left w/o a word & din leave me any ways to contact him...
Sad becos i haven got the chance to let him explain to me everything & i tink will never have any chance le bah...
jus wana jot down my complicated feelings... =)
had my manicure done just down & chosen his fav nail colour which i never try before...
Then cum hm jiu saw his mail liao... Wat a coincidence~
Wondering will i be able to get to sleep with so many complicated feelings......
i was surprised to see a birthday card from him...
Complicated feelings!! i dunno shld i be happy or dishearten or disappointed or sad...
Happy becos he remember & care to send me greetings from so far away & telling me he is fine...
Dishearten becos our simple wish to celebrate my birthday, not being able to be come true...
Disappointed becos he left w/o a word & din leave me any ways to contact him...
Sad becos i haven got the chance to let him explain to me everything & i tink will never have any chance le bah...
jus wana jot down my complicated feelings... =)
had my manicure done just down & chosen his fav nail colour which i never try before...
Then cum hm jiu saw his mail liao... Wat a coincidence~
Wondering will i be able to get to sleep with so many complicated feelings......
Friday, August 22, 2008
''Bookie days''
keke... bookie days meaning the days with book nothing illegal k...
As refer to previous posts, thanks for all the care & concerns.. I'm feeling better le... Dun worry k!! As for how did I felt beta is due to a Book... On that day when i'm feeling down, I actually went to library to calm/cool down myself in the slienct place.... Its been long that i step into public library & i even had a stupid incident there... Elaborate later... As i say i wanted to calm myself so i jus walk ard to grab a book & sit down.... And so coincidence, i saw this book title : Feel Happy Now! So i jiu take lor.... To my surprise, i actually read it & even completed half of the book within the 1.5hr.... To be frank, i'm nt a reading person till to the extend whereby when i open a book i tends to feel sleepy... Keke! But tat day was somehow or rather weird me to read so much... Cos after reading it, i actually felt better... Really better! I was so amaze untill i wanted to borrow it so much! I tink i will completed it by tis weekend cos i oso borrowed another 3 books to maximise the use of borrowing even though i might nt read [i'm a typical kiasu sporean]... Will share with u all that book in my next post k... Cos it actually teaches u the "Happy Formula" [tis will be my next blog post topic] Stay tune..
As i mention earlier, i had a stupid incident.. Here it is! Cos after i chosen the books, i walked to the borrowing machine which is rather new & alien to me... I stood there for like 5min to figure out how to use it cos i tink got more than 10 yrs din borrow books liao... Luckily nobody is in the Q, if nt they sure laugh at tis 'sua gu' de... Finally i figured out liao, i happliy follow the instructions but that stupid machine prompt me a message saying that tat book cannot be borrowed & ask me to proceed to counter... I tried with all books & different machine oso same message... I was so disappointed & scared cos for a moment i tot i spoil that machine or did i have bad records with National Library Board... So i guai guai proceed to counter & tell the customer service abt tat error & gave her my NRIC.... Felt abit awkward until i wanted to tell her i dun want to borrow liao.... But before i open my mouth, tis customer svc lady tells me that the error is due to because i long time din borrow books liao, so the system cannot get my data... I was like "HUH"... like that oso got error.... But after so updating, the problems is solved liao.... I even jokingly asked her so how often do i need to update my detail so to prevent such error when borrowing again?... Keke! So to those people who are just like me, super long never go library liao.. Please go update ur details with National Library Board in order to enjoy the privilledges borrowing books & etc.... Most impt, dun get panic when u see that alien borrowing machine or the error msg when borrowing books... Its just a system error!! Hahaha~
Now i'm tinking, how to return the books huh? i never see any returning machines in library ley... Anybody hav any idea?
I tink these few days will be indulging myself with books... Just like last 2 nights, i actually read till i felt sleepy before i turn off my table lamp.... Moreover, i feel that reading isn't as boring as i tot... I officially announce that i hav a new hobby : Reading [although it will not be my all time fav hobby, but at least for the time being i like it]
I even put a book in my baggie wherever i go these days... My DS Lite must be so jealous that i neglect him... Keke!
Btw, want to remind that today & tml (22nd & 23rd) have fireworks @ Marina Bay... Can go somewhere ard there to see see k... Should be very nice & romantic... At the same time will be CROWDED too... As for me, maybe i will be going la... Today will be having dinner wf a fren, if times allow then will go to that Ulu Ulu place to watch fireworks... Provided i still remember the way to the ulu place.... If nt gota ask whether my fren remembered ma....
Enjoy ur friday & weekend....
Note : Next post on "Happy Formula"...
As refer to previous posts, thanks for all the care & concerns.. I'm feeling better le... Dun worry k!! As for how did I felt beta is due to a Book... On that day when i'm feeling down, I actually went to library to calm/cool down myself in the slienct place.... Its been long that i step into public library & i even had a stupid incident there... Elaborate later... As i say i wanted to calm myself so i jus walk ard to grab a book & sit down.... And so coincidence, i saw this book title : Feel Happy Now! So i jiu take lor.... To my surprise, i actually read it & even completed half of the book within the 1.5hr.... To be frank, i'm nt a reading person till to the extend whereby when i open a book i tends to feel sleepy... Keke! But tat day was somehow or rather weird me to read so much... Cos after reading it, i actually felt better... Really better! I was so amaze untill i wanted to borrow it so much! I tink i will completed it by tis weekend cos i oso borrowed another 3 books to maximise the use of borrowing even though i might nt read [i'm a typical kiasu sporean]... Will share with u all that book in my next post k... Cos it actually teaches u the "Happy Formula" [tis will be my next blog post topic] Stay tune..
As i mention earlier, i had a stupid incident.. Here it is! Cos after i chosen the books, i walked to the borrowing machine which is rather new & alien to me... I stood there for like 5min to figure out how to use it cos i tink got more than 10 yrs din borrow books liao... Luckily nobody is in the Q, if nt they sure laugh at tis 'sua gu' de... Finally i figured out liao, i happliy follow the instructions but that stupid machine prompt me a message saying that tat book cannot be borrowed & ask me to proceed to counter... I tried with all books & different machine oso same message... I was so disappointed & scared cos for a moment i tot i spoil that machine or did i have bad records with National Library Board... So i guai guai proceed to counter & tell the customer service abt tat error & gave her my NRIC.... Felt abit awkward until i wanted to tell her i dun want to borrow liao.... But before i open my mouth, tis customer svc lady tells me that the error is due to because i long time din borrow books liao, so the system cannot get my data... I was like "HUH"... like that oso got error.... But after so updating, the problems is solved liao.... I even jokingly asked her so how often do i need to update my detail so to prevent such error when borrowing again?... Keke! So to those people who are just like me, super long never go library liao.. Please go update ur details with National Library Board in order to enjoy the privilledges borrowing books & etc.... Most impt, dun get panic when u see that alien borrowing machine or the error msg when borrowing books... Its just a system error!! Hahaha~
Now i'm tinking, how to return the books huh? i never see any returning machines in library ley... Anybody hav any idea?
I tink these few days will be indulging myself with books... Just like last 2 nights, i actually read till i felt sleepy before i turn off my table lamp.... Moreover, i feel that reading isn't as boring as i tot... I officially announce that i hav a new hobby : Reading [although it will not be my all time fav hobby, but at least for the time being i like it]
I even put a book in my baggie wherever i go these days... My DS Lite must be so jealous that i neglect him... Keke!
Btw, want to remind that today & tml (22nd & 23rd) have fireworks @ Marina Bay... Can go somewhere ard there to see see k... Should be very nice & romantic... At the same time will be CROWDED too... As for me, maybe i will be going la... Today will be having dinner wf a fren, if times allow then will go to that Ulu Ulu place to watch fireworks... Provided i still remember the way to the ulu place.... If nt gota ask whether my fren remembered ma....
Enjoy ur friday & weekend....
Note : Next post on "Happy Formula"...
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