2nd Oct is a memorable date... I remember cos 2yrs bk, its the day i gotten my driving license without any confidence at all... I was quite shock when i got it!! :) And so coincident, my fren oso gotta her license on the same day after 2yrs... Haha! I still tell her 2nd Oct is a lucky day, sure pass one.. And really she did it!! Congrats :)
And on 2nd Oct 2009, i have done something ridiculous 'ägain'... ya, jus last fri... I tink i'm out of my mind... I've always been a perfectionist! I will not do things without a certain level of confidence as I'm a person who cannot accept failure... I've always wan things to be Zero defects... that's me!! But I wonder why can i cast aside every fear & worry to help him regardless of how terrified & nervous & how unconfident am I, just becos of 1 reason... He needs me... Becos of this reason, I would be as head strong as possible, as thick skin as whoever, as brave as i've nvr been, as insane as watever.... Jus to help him. With this reason, every problem doesn't seems as problematic & not that difficult as i thought it will be... Even though without confidence, I will still go ahead as I always believe that i can overcome all obstacles to help him... And it has always been like this... i realise that it has never change before since the 1st day i noe him... :)
2nd Oct 2009, i should say its adventurous... Haha! Aid reached within an hour... I din have time to tink through how did I manage to make it so fast until late night when i sat down peacefully to have a sip... I start to ask myself why is it so? is it kinda stupid? Haha~ I din bother to find an answer cos i know answer can nvr been found...
But this time round I felt alittle different in him... Maybe its out of gradtitude, maybe its out of thankful-ness... I really feel something different... Especially when he holded my hand... nobody muttered a single word to break the silence... I do not noe how to react other than enjoying that moment... Actually i should say I wouldn't bear to disturb the sweet moments bah :p
[I'm still enjoying the moment he hold my hand.... how i hope the time will stop at that moment & the journey never end....... :)]
During that moment, alot of things went tru my mind... i feel that there are things that he wanted to tell me or maybe i think too much... But i did not allow a chance to let him say even he hint for some private moments to talk... Can see his disappointment directly on his face but actually I felt regret immediately i answered him... But wat to do... Watever said cannot be taken back...
Sometimes i wonder how will it be if..............................
Will things be the same? ~ [~??????????????????????~]
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