why?

[Mood colour code : Grey, i mean dark grey]

i wonder why i still remember today...
i could not get to sleep yesterday nite as i could not shut off my mind only until 3am. I dare not tell or should i put it in not willing to confide frens cos i noe they will scold me straightaway. I tink its better to keep to myself instead!

Please! I really hope i can be forgetful abt this date & erase this in my future calendar.

Had been pulling a long long face tru out... And i'm craving for cigerettes!! Bad habit... I wonder y i always urge to smoke when i'm in very very bad mood...
But dun worry... only urge, no action was taken! And i assume actions will nt be taken... =)

ice grumbling.com

Woken up damn early tis morning at 5.30am.... Haiz! Its been sometimes that i had a nice quality sleep session. Had been sleeping very little these days especially the month May.. Wondering y?? I tink my mind was not resting tats y... That explain my headaches too... Fyi, i had been having frequent headache since last 2wks... And its not getting better till i finish 1 box of panadols within these 2wks. Now 2 tablets only efficient for slight headaches. For severe ones, i need 3... OMG!! I had been refraining myself to take panadol these days.. Cos i afraid its too much dosage liao! Other than headaches, i oso had neckaches & backaches... Haiz! I wonder why i having pain all over & feeling listless & boringness most of the time... I tink i need something to perk my life alittle & yearning for a good massage...

ENUFF OF COMPLAINING!!

These days had been staying home most of the time doing up work & stuffs. Feeling lazy to go out & oso to talk/chat... Only manage to have a coffee session with fren & listen to his speech... Been a quiet gal + a good listener for these days... i accidentally found out that my record was speaking less than 10 sentences a day! Awesome right?? Haha...
Anyway, June is coming soon... I suppose it will be a lonely month too cos alot of my frens are not in Singapore... Argh~ They are flying all over the world for work & for fun... How envy!! US, Maldives, Germany, Vietnam, Philppines, Thailand & etc.. So many countries rite... So sad that I cannot go... Just hoping that they dun forget to get me presents from different places.. Haha!! [trying to comfort myself =)]
Btw, June is oso a special month cos its bride-to-be Pearline's wedding. She personally pass the 'Red Bomb' to me last saturday. How sweet of u =) Initially she wana drop into my mailbox cos i was goin out soon. But end up my mailbox was lock & so she came up my place & coincidently we MET along the corridoor... Haha!! She got a lucky star with her tats y so lucky lor... Am i right?? Looking forward to it :)

Oh ya... today is dumpling day! but dun eat too much bak zak k... HAHA!

Happy Birthday Qi

Happy Birthday to u, Peiqi aka Chole!!
Wish u happy always & stay beautiful forever =)

Enjoy this special day of yours!!

Phobia

With all the encouragements & utmost courage, i finally overcum my own obstacle... Like wat my fren say, "its jus a 'ok' to allow a chance to happen.. no big deal!" I kept reminding myself to go ahead go ahead & i really did it & i tried... Everything flows more than beta than i suppose BUT the problem jus lies in me...


Regardless of how much care, concern & attentiveness tactics being shown on me...
i'm still can feel te fear in myself...
i'm still afraid of luving & being love.....

Gratitude

Dear frenz,

Thanks for all the concerns during these days when i'm not feeling good... It may be jus a phone call or even a msg, it really meant alot to me!! i really appreciate lots.. Btw, my grandma was discharged oredi... I can't say she is not totally well but at least beta le.. At least we can ease our mind abit le.. :) Today is a non work day for me... Finally i could rest abit... Phew! Will update againz..

Oh ya.. Yest went suling place for chatting wf qi to catch up alittle cos very long din see them le.. Oso decide to join them for K Lunch tml :) wondering who will i see tml...
Cya!