Xmas Pressie

Gift Xchange cum Diana's Birthday celebration @ Raffles City Shodoku on 21st Dec 2008.
All of us got our gifts exchange at 1 go... And i luckily got diana's one which was a blusher set... The galz were so envy cos it was the best gift among all... Kekez!!
And Suling oso got everyone a shawl from India... Thanks galz!! Not forgetting, Pearl oso made us chocolates which i forgot to take photo when it was as whole.... Sadly, the choco actually melt .. But it still taste nice la... The rest are some of the Xmas pressie from my frenz... Din expect to receive so many pressie tis year... Haha!! still got a few more boxes haven open yet...

Alittle of updates... Met Georgi on saturday cos she actually came all the way from east to pick me to the New Jurong Point for dim sum lunch & shopping... Jurong Point is big de lor.... Cos i nearly lost there... HAHA~ Surong & Alvin oso join in around dinner time cos georgi treat... Wealthy lady she is cos the way she shop & eat is so tai tai... Great catch-up cos its been 7mths that we 3 gals sit together to talk... luv it~

And finally.... A pic of my straight hair cos its straight no more oredi~
Still trying to get used to the straight no more hair....
Will update pic after i noe how to deal with the curls.... Wahahah~

Merry Xmas

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do u smell the holidayz season around the corners..... I believe these 2weeks or in fact tis whole month every human being hasn't got much mood to work right.... Especially these few days... Super holiday mood sia... I have both good news & bad news on this cold cold Xmas eve...

Good news is........ NON-working week from 24th till 29th... Yippie! Boss officially announce that it company's leave... Haha!!

Bad news is........ I'm sick~ having stomach cramp + coughing + sore throat.... Sigh!

Despite the sicky me, i still feel good cos its holidays.... Wahahaha~ Still haven plann wat to do during this xmas... Only gt the news that a Xmas party @ Suling place is cancelled... Abit disappointing cos was rather looking forward de.... Haha! But nvm...
[Btw, today Suling got an interview today... Wish her good luck!! She told me she was rather stress... Hope she dun get to stress & nervous during interview... Was telling qi & alvin & ade that maybe can bribe the interviewer cos its Xmas... jokin la!]

We galz hold a mini birthday celebration for diana cum gift exchange session last sunday @ Raffles City restaurant named Shoduku [if i din remembered wrongly]... Food there was quite nice... Its like Marche concept but serving mostly Japanese food.... Meeting up was quite fun cos i tink its our 1st time for gift exchange... Our everlasting unchanging loud laughter & giggling... [actually much more softer compare to before liao] Abit unglam but who cares.... Haha!! Pics is still with Mrs Tan.... i tink she too busy to upload rite.... Will chase her on tis.... Will upload all pic on all the Xmas pressie...

Okok... Gtg liao... Merry Xmas!!
Byee~~~

trying to accept

i hate comparison... when there is comparison, there is always good & bad... which tends lead to happy & unhappiness... Since in this case, why bother to compare in the 1st place?? i conclude it as human nature bah... I'm nt a person who bother good or bad de... So in short , i always dislike comparison/dun bother about the comparison... I feel that watever it is, as long as I'm happy jiu hao lo... Wat so big deal!! but but but... Yesterday i tried out the comparison test out of my curiosity... I tot i wun mind the outcome, wun mind the words & truth even though its rather surface..... I'm wrong!! Human nature played a joke on me... At 1st i'm okay, but after further tinking, i feel so bad... Disappointment grows rapidly...

i wonder how u people feel when u gt to know how ''much'' urself worth in ur good good fren whereas tis good good fren worth extremely dear to urself... Truthfully, i dunno how to react... I wonder is it that i expect too much or is it tat i'm not prepared for what i suppose to hear/feel... I'm just not able not to take those words too hard... Even though it may be jus a casual remark or suppose to be a joke... It kept lingering around my mind... Maybe i take tis friendship too seriously bah... in the means of trying to accept...

For a moment, i nearly burst into tears....

[i tink its going to be time of the month liao... tats y so moody! ]

perm hair crave

Met a client just nw & saw her luxurious curl hair.... So nice & lovely.... I love it!! Make me wanting to perm hair again... i knew i keep telling people around me that i'm going to perm my hair soon cos i can't take the rebond effect on my head... Haha~ Time flies... i've been complaining for 7mths liao... Haha~ Actually getting used to it despite the complaining...

Planning to perm it next week cos will be on leave after Xmas eve's eve...
Wish tat i'm firm in my decision tis time!

dreamy

i dreamt of him again... sickening!!
i wonder why is he haunting me in my dream whereas i'm neither tinking nor missing of him at all... my bro actually bought me a dream catcher last few weeks... i was tinking how a dream catcher works? what is it for? I'm wondering whether is it the dream catcher doing its work tat is causing me having difficulties in falling asleep & not forgetting those dreams... Sigh~
Tinking of removing it from my room... Sooner or later la..

i dunno can tis be describe as 'superstitious'??

Hahhaa!

bad moody date

din hav really good mood yest so i actually went back home early to meet another bad mood fren... georgi's mood is even worst than mine... So we name it as ''Bad Moody Date"... she claims that a good meal will make us feel better... Which i suppose its abit nonsense... Haha!! Anyway, she waited for quite sometime for me to arrive cos of the heavy traffic during peak hour...

Tell u.. she can really eat alot despite her petite size... We ordered a full table of food which i was so stunned lo... There r ribeye steaks, big prawn aglio pasta, casear salads, mushroom soup, garlic bread, potato skin with sour cream & 3 drinks... She always have this bad habit to order so many thing then not finishing... But tis time round she actually finish all even though the food was as tasty except steak.... Upon finishing, she still can tell me "Seems that i'm not enough ley... I tink we need desserts!!" By that time i was like HUH.... Luckily i manage to hint the waiter not to allow her to order anymore things & just to bring over the bill... She is simplily crazy!!!!! She insisted the bill & promise that next bill will be on me... I hope she remember cos she hav a habit of snatching bills.... Btw, the bill was so expensive sia!!! no more next time...

We headed back to her house at East Coast after alittle walk to ease my digestion while she search for more food [ridiculous!!!] & grumbling, complaining etc.... Din went up to her place cos my fren came just in time to fetch me home at this unfamiliar place... Thanks to both~~

I'm so lucky to have so many frens fetching me & sav my time & $$ for all those transport.... Just like this morning, i came to work using LRT then MRT then bus for the 1st time in my 3yrs service in this company.... It took me 1.5hr... WTH!!

after so long~

after so long, i actually can't forget about what happens 1yr + ago...

these few nights, i spend many hours recalling about the past...

i wonder y after so much effort i tried to put in not tink of it, but it still cums back...

i still can clearly recall every bit & pieces, every detail, every words & promises...

haha~ kinda ridiculous!!



I always wanted to go to the house to check out how is he doing...

but din have the courage & fren always stop me frm going...

Moreover, i was tinking what for...???



But yest i actually gradually went over..

Gradually cos i was tinking of him while on the way home but the car was towards the direction to his place...

To my surprise, i actually dare not turn into that road... i guess i knew myself that i wouldn't be able to control myself to let him go again bah~

Just found out that i have some over due photos awaiting to be uploadmet Georgi for coffee & shopping but forget when is it liao... It was a last min decision cos she was too free liao... Free till she actually came to fetch me from Changi... Haha! Its still so nice of her la... I din take her pic cos she wasn't in the mood for photo taking bah... And partly, i remember she is just like me, we dun like to take pics de... But that day she wore a super low cut & sexy top which will make everybody STARE & go weet~ weet~... But sad to say the pics above din manage to capture a nice angle...

Below was a new pendant i bought during one of my shopping day... Like it alot when i saw it... Its alphabet I... I for iCe...

Below is my mani & pedicure from my malaysia trip... Its damn cheapo & nice... Especially the french one cos its my 1st time to try french manicure... I like it alotz!!! Then the pedicure i like the flowers drawn on my individual toes.... Alot of hardwork wor...

But sad to say, my french mani was destroy by me after 1 week... Wasted!!

As for yesterday, met up wf pearl for dinner at Tampines... Yah!! i noe its super far & for no reason i wouldn't have step into that place which i hated alot... But due to i've got some issues to settle there so i bo bianz lo... Wana thank her for accompanying me to SO FAR after her tiring workday & make her stand tru out the MRT trip from dover till tampines... Haha!! But i guess its a fruitful trip cos we both bought some skin care products from there to make us more beautiful & mei mei... Hope that it works well for both of us.. If not the money dump will be wasted liao...

[spend alot of $$ ah~~]

Will be meeting her later to accompany her to do threading...

[dilemma in decision making cos i'm too contridicting to decide]

親愛的冰友, i'm back!!!

Hi 冰友... i'm back!!
Jus came back from my 10days road trip to Malaysia... Dunno can it be considered road trip cos we actually have no desitination tru out those days... Jus plain driving around & find place to sleep & eat & buy things... Haha! Quite a good & relaxing idea actually... No time constrain... No stress cos i'm not the main driver... I'm only a map reader when in need... And surprisely, i can read a map!! Somemore a malaysia map... I'm so proud of myself!! Even the 'commando' in the car can't read the map correctly... Wahahha~ Anyway, maybe i'm juz plain lucky gal to get those fellow cars on the right track!! kekez...

This trip was relaxing but i din manage to take many pics... Din really find beautiful place to take pictures... Not even cam whoring myself.... Only cam-whore the little cheeky chap who is my little cousin... Very playful boi yet cutie... He actualli req to me to take photo of him while he pose lo... Below are some pics taken during the long vacation....

A nice trip though... Never been to Malaysia for such long time before... Shiok manz!!

Yesterday, Suling fly off to Bangalore for her volunteer work & tml yiru will oso fly to join her there too... Was quite worried for them cos of the recent terrorist case... For a moment suling was still considering to go or not but in the end still go lo... Will only be back on 20th Dec... Hope that they will be doing fine there... Today evening, my another fren oso fly to india but tis is a holiday trip.. Oso tinking whether to go ant.. In the end still go.... Wondering y so many people going india these period!!! Anyway, hope everything will be fine for all of them...

btw, for those who is going oversea there is this link for u to register that u are out of town.... www.mfa.com.sg then find the link to "e-registration"

This is the web for u to register so that the embassy will locate u easily & stay contact easily if anything happens [TOUCHWOOD TOUCHWOOD]... This is something i learn last 2days cos Suling was asking me abt it.... Registration is reccommended especially during these period of time... So frenz, please take a few mins to register k.... I dunno whether is tis info being told to every1 or maybe i'm the only kuku who dunno abt it.....

Time to finish off my work & "bang gang lo"

missing

Been lazy to blog lately...

Things hasn't been good these days for both work & life & myself...

Always feel that there's something missing out there...

Shopping Therapy doesn't bring joy like before...

Pampering myself doesn't bring back my smile like it used to be...

Yesterday, I even stay home to enjoy the joy of channel switching till 12+am...

I wonder why "moodiness" kept lingering around me....

This morning i wake up remembering that last nite i was waken by people quarelling loudly @3am scolding !@#$% & not forgetting i dreamt of him after so long...

And coincidencely, this morning i saw him in the record viewing my profile...

I wonder why out from no where he came into my dream...

Even though its only a short one but every details seems so real...

But i guess my reaction in the dream should be my actual behaviour bah...

hope that the rain will make me feel cos i love the smell of rain...

Big Walk 2008

Went to Big Walk 2008 last sunday with my family... A "so-call" 5km walkathon but its seems so much further than it was told... An event of cap @20K people but oso seems more than it suppose to be... Tis isn't the 1st time my family join Big Walk, in fact tinking back its was like the 3rd or 4th time with them liao & not forgetting i did went with the BANG galz but forgotten which year liao... U gals remember??
Used to be a 10km journey but tis year shorten to be only half... Starting Point at Suntec City Fortune Fountain & Ending Point @ Marina Barrage which suppose to be newly launch place with nice viewa of Singapore Flyers... To be exact, the location is actually behind Marina South Steamboat area but just to let u all noe the steamboat all close liao.... The place is a dead city liao... In Case nobody know, dun go there for steamboat k!!

Even though the journey is shorten by half, the tiredness is more or less the same ley.... To be frank tis year Big Walk not very nice compared to those those years i participated before.... Tis years de abit too dis-organise & the route was mostly muddy & crowded... Anyway, not to mention further lah... We still manage to finish 5KM despite the tiredness, hotness, & my unwellness [cos i not feeling well but i still go for tis family trip lor...]


Nothing much to blog recently... Maybe some updates of wat i've done last week...
- Done my 1st PAID threading by an indian lady...
- Feel regretted after threading but skin improved tremendously after a few days [mask absorbed beta & make-up stay nicer]
- Meet up Surong for dinner & chit chat... [only to realise i forgotten to talk about some topics]
- Bought a tooth brush kit to bring where ever i go whereas Surong ask me "U so hardworking meh?"
- Cancelled my postpone Bintan trip again cos dun feel like going...
- Went swimming & sauna with Suling @ Pearl house while pearl is knitting at home... -_-"
- Drive Suling & Leon for the 1st time...
- Went for my hair treatment & discussing with hairstylist when & how to perm my hair...
- Had my 1st fever of the year... Must be due to the rain plus swimming...
- Spent $300 within 1.5hrs at Bukit Panjang Plaza without even realising i've oredi spent so much!
- Only ate 3 meals over the weekend without realising too!!


I tink tats all i remembered wat i've done last week...
Jus bear with tis bo liao iCe k...

mummy birthday cake

Overdue photos......

Tadah~

isn't the cake cute?? its too nice till my mummy can't bear to cut it...

But of cos we still destroy it after much consideration...

below are the step we do to cut it...

Abit troublesome than normal cakes cos got alot of obstruction...

so gotta remove those "ingredients" before we cut it

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Tadah~

I noe its abit ugly la... But it taste nice k...

some moments for myself

i just stop my clock for a moment to let myself rest alittle & enjoy some moments for myself...

To bluff myself tat i've got alittle moment to enjoy my nicely freshly brewed coffee & enjoying raindrops view on my glass window & surroundings...

Sometimes i do believe in casting away everything & enjoy "THAT" very moment...
It helps to rest my mind & soul to have a feel of time stopping...

It feels great u noe.... Especially when u are nt in right state....

at least it works for me~

ya... indeed i'm not in right mood today... just like the weather...

hazy... drizzling... moody...

潜意识的我

i wonder why i had tis dream last night... I've been preventing & stopping myself from tinking or brooding over those stuffs liao... But i tink i'm subconsciously brooding over this issue till i'm unaware or dun want to remind myself about it bah... So resulting in 潜意识 [subconsciousness] dreaming of it... Indeed i'm glad about the dream which i feel very bad & shouldn't have felt tis way la... But i guess my dream had reflect my true self, my realli real true feelings that i wish it happens bah... Be it good or bad~

Last 2 days was chatting with my fren Surong... She reminded me that its been sometimes that we seen each other which i recall to be more than 3mths bah... Time realli flies wor... I was stunned that its been so long... I guess i seldom take my initiative to contact my frenz to chat abt their life & things happening around them... I remembered i used to be hogging on the phone for at least 5hours per day but now the reluctance & forgetfulness & laziness to call especially after i started my worklife... Sometimes i felt that my worklife actually contribute to my quiet self... Please bear with me if tis behaviour really annoy u all~ Its not that i dun care k... I just forgt to remind myself to call... Time to time i will try to remind myself more frequently...

As mention was chatting with Surong about her relationship... She kept on complaining abt her bf tis & tat etc etc... She mention that i'm comforting her like as if i'm a Love Consultant/Love Guru... Haha! Dun tink i'm suitable for that name cos i dun believe in it... But i'm quite shock about the way i comfort her cos subconciously i felt that i'm able to see a broader picture than before & view relationship in different aspects/views even though i dun trully believe in love... I was tinking how cum i din use the same tactic to comfort myself when i faced similar problems in the past... Haha! Maybe my subciousness not that strong to overcum bah~

Please put on your thinking cap... Just wana share abit:

Do u people quarrel or do u hear people quarrel before? Have u ever really listen on how people quarrel? Did u notice when people quarrel, they will often use "U.... U.... U... U...." Seldom they will use "I.... I.... I..." even if hav, it will be a question as in "Wat about me? i got wrong meh? Am i wrong?" This is how quarrel aroused bah... Often when u cooled down, u will feel that u r nt right & contributed to the quarrel too.... It always take 2 hands to clap de... I feel that if each party mention more about "I... I... I..." I believe things will get much better bah.... i dunno am i right or wrong but tis is how i feel... At least i use this & seldom quarrel with people mah... Haha~

But just to add on.... Said is easier than done~ I'm human too, I do forget tis tactic at times & end up quarreling too....But at least subconciously i try mah...

No harm to trying~

tiRed weekenD + mummy birthday

Today is mummy's birthday~ Wish her prettie always & most importantly good health... Din celebrate last week cos due to the busy weekend we hav... Not celebrating today as didi is nt around... But dun worry! We are celebrating it on fri when didi book out.... Daddy & me just went to order a special cake for mummy... Can't wait to see the cake!! Kekez....
As for today, will treat her to makan her fav Jap food... Just called her & she told me she is all ready for food cos she haven eaten her lunch... Hahah~

As i mention earlier, i had a busy weekend... Felt really tiring tru out as both days i used my legs too much!! Saturday went to work part time wf suling, leon & yiru... Stand tru out for so many hours make our legs so sore... But its kinda fun even though with lots of complain... I actually felt kinda weird initially cos i'm holding a full time managing workers for these years & all of a sudden i change to a worker role... Not used to it la... Cos initially i felt i work as if i'm working for my company & its totally a kind shit manz... I nearly scold my partners beside me.... But things get better when i kept reminding myself that i'm worker nt manager... Haha! Learn quite a number of things there even though its just a simple job... I tink sometimes i do need to change role to tink from a worker point of view too... Was wondering am i able to make for tis sat session... Hmm~



Then sunday was another sweaty one... Was quite reluctant to go morning exercise wf my family due to the tiredness despite the early knock out.... But still forced myself to go la... If not i would not hav take so many photos again... Tis time went to Telok Blangah Hill Forest walk.... Its actually a bridge [as refer to the pics] that lead from the hill top to hill bottm...
Then it link towards the Hort Park which we went last sunday... A very very very long metal bridge that was built above ground at least got 3-4 storeys high... Was trembling when i look downwards as i got a little height phobia & somemore the bridge got loop holes for u to peek tru.... Was shivering especially when walking upwards... FYI, we climb down then visit the Hort Park again then climb back... A to & fro journey.... Wasn't tat sunny compared to last week, in fact it drizzles alittle... =) Took quite a number of pics actually... will uoload again cos pc gt alittle problem... In the mean time just to show u one very cute pic my parent pose for....

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~Wahahaahahahahahha~

[above photograph proudly presented by ice & kai]

busy week

been busy these days... Everyday seems nt enuff time, not enuff sleep... But at least i accomplished a few pending stuffs for this week with the convenience of car... Finally went Daiso wf pearl on tues but we rch only at 8.40pm... Which means we only hav 1hr & 20min to shop = not enuff.... Despite the little time we hav, we still manage to fill our trolley wf lots of things.. In fact its just my things... Pearl comment that i shop untill its frEe de.. Haha! actually my mind was blank when i'm there... I forgotten wat i need to buy liao... Only manage to recall a few nia... In the end, i bought alot of boxes... Haha.. Luckily gt car, i can't imagine i take public transport wf all the shopping bags... keke!

Oso went to meet Qi, Suling & Yiru on wed @ St James for a celebration for Suling cos she finally finish her slimming thingy & end result was good!!! So we intend to hav a small celebration wf ladies only... So i actually cancel my tuiton & went for nite out~ =) We did enjoy ourselves tat night with the games & drinks... And not forgetting watching Suling laughing away cos she was a little high~ Hahaha~ Dunno why/wat she is laughing abt... keke! Anyway i went there with a mission which is to take a pic of suling *****[beta dun say la].... Anyway, my mission was accomplished!! Haha... I haven show the main lead yet... Keke! Suppose to have another gal joining us de... But in the end she fly us aeroplane.... We was so sad & disappointed =_='' u noe who u r la hor.... Aeroplane Queen!!! kekez... Anyway, aeroplane queen got her revenge liao.... Wahahaha~ me & suling plan for the whole revenge to trick her.... =p

As for yest, went straight to suling place to pass her things & tabao dinner to eat wf her... Paiseh for the late dinner cos was rushing tru out & the traffic abit heavy & oso i dunno the way la... While we were eating, we were oso watching the tv prog that she joined de, forget wat name liao.... Next week will be her turn liao... Saw abit of advertisement le... Looking forward for the whole programme next week... Keke! After i left suling place, i went to car wash.... My 1st time... hehe! so fun... Was too lazy to wash it myself so i pay lo...

I tink today will be the most relaxing day but i assume to be extra tiring cos today is tuition day... Tinking of cancelling but i guess i can't bah cos next week will be exam week liao.. And somemore tml i wun be free for the make up lesson for wed session... Hope that today wun be too angry during tuition~

As for tml, suling, leon, yiru & me will be going expo for a part time job... Haha! Been so long time tat i work part time... Tink its gonna be fun bah... Thats y i agree wf it... Tinking of the tiredness & travelling time, i wonder can i take it mah....

Sunday wise, i tink my family is having a small celebration for mummy's birthday bah... Not confirm is it Sat or Sun.... Gotta chk wf didi & daddy tonight le...


Very packed & busy week hor.... But i felt happy~ Especially the days with 'Bluie'... Dreaming of having my own car now... GeeZ! Oso felt that my driving skills has improved tru out the week le... =) And i din noe i got fan as in fen si... a guy gave me his number & req me to call him as he say he likes to hear me sing... Keke! i noe its abit ridiculous la but just felt happy mah... But of cos i wun call him la... Tat's nt my kind of doing... Anyway, I oso dunno where i throw his number liao... Kekez... i noe i'm mei li mao la...


Felt so happy to hav fen si.... While my fren just so jealous abt it~ haha..... OK! Enuff of dreaming liao... Its time to 'BANG GANG' [hokkien phrase : off work] liao~

Photo of Kent Ridge Park & Hort Park

Wasn't feeling good today... So instead of working, i'm actually uploading pics to ease my frustration & hoping that the nature pictures can cool me off abit... Only manage to upload some of it here cos the file all too big liao...

I tink its due to the strong sunlight that make the colours so vibrant in the pics~

Kent Ridge Park & Hort Park

(did u see me out there?keke~)

Its a 36 degree day.. Super hot!!!

Hot until even the fishes were hiding under shade... They swam reverse way to park themselves under the shade... Haha~ cutE!

the green green scenery

the pond @ Hort Park...

I manage to capture pictures of dragonfly resting~

~ the flowers piCs ~

~My fav shot~

Lastly is a magic shot... =)
(Clockwise: my hand, my didi, my dad)

a disaster weekend

Phew~ Finally finish my morning work... At least now got abit of time to blog... I noe i seldom updates during weekend cos due to laziness or business.... Keke! Tis time is actually angry-ness!!! I actually had my tuition remedial lesson on saturday due to fri session was incomplete.... Wat a blood boil...ING session!! Initially was tinkng of a light session then bring the 2 children (niece & nephew) out for ice cream at Swensen... In the end, i was too irritated cum no mood till i only brought niece for ice cream at Mama shop to just fulfiled my ice-cream promise... My nephew was totally a freaking irritating crook!!! Its was only a 3hr session & he is able to make me shout at the peak of my voice... In the end i told my nephew that i can't tolerate liao... My hair is going to stand if i continue with him... So i just went off with my niece & left him in the house with his maid... A total 2 days of disaster!! On fri, my dad also explode at my nephew cos of his unserious-ness... Then saturday, he was like testing my patience too~ WTH! Tis boi is unique.. UNIQUE-LY MISCHIEVOUS.....

So I actually went for a nature walk at Kent Ridge name Hort Park with my family... Saw alot of nice beautiful flowers, greens & trees... Was out at sun for 4hrs & all my family members got a sunburn.... I tink its been sometime that i went under sun liao.... Felt really different out in the sun....Vitamin D is taking action~ Took quite a numbers of pics... will update after i load....
Nature is sOooo beautiful...



Oh ya... Today is Suling & Leon's filming day...
Wondering how is their result oredi? Especially suling... Must be doing great rite.... Got to noe from Pearl tat the filming is at Marina Sq in noon & at night they will be proceeding for steamboat @ Bugis.... I'm not joining for both session as i'm too camera shy & dun like tis kind of publicity on tv even a split seconds oso dun wan.... As for steamboat, i tot of joining but i have a major praying session today at 8pm & somemore i'm vegetarian today... Felt abit guilty that i'm not able to join to witness her brand new change... I hope she is not angry lo... I called her just now but she is too busy to talk to me cos she is doing her make-up preparing for the filming... Heard her disappointed tone when i told her that i'm not going for steamboat.... Hope that she is not angry cos i haven tell her that i'm going for praying... hmm~ But i spoke to the male lead "Leon" cos he is done liao.... He say that Suling is extremely pretty wor... Manage to speak to Suling awhile & she even told me her make-up & outfit can get champion for Miss Singapore liao... KekeZ!! I guess she must be pretty stunning today... =)
Will wait for photographs... Cos i tink there are lots of photographers there bah.... hehe! Oredi told pearl to take more liao...
I tink i will meet Suling tis week cos its been a long time that i 've since her liao... Wana see her with my own eyes... =) Wondering when is she free to let me treat her a meal for apology of her disappointment... Gotta chk with her tonight or tml....

爸爸,妈妈一样好

visited baby daphne & mummy jocelyn yest nite.... daphne is sOoo cute, sOo lovely, sOoo soft & sOoo sleepy too... =) She is like a sleeping beauty cos she was sleeping so soundly tru out my visit regardless of all kinds of sounds, laughter or even shaking... Gd sleeping skills she have wor... But nvm la... Watching her sleeping also feel that she is cute... Keke!
Will visit her again during her full month... By then hopefully can play wf her liao... =)

Glad to see both of them healthy & happy... Daphne is so xinfu to have to many people to look after her & dote her... Mummy jocelyn look abit tired but still as bubbly... She was complaining to me about her confinement... She claims that it's sOooo many ginger!! No choice mah... Not nice oso gotta eat cos all these is good for ur health... Heard from elderly that u gotta gain back as many nutrients as possible during confinement if not u will have alot of side effects de... So mummy jocelyn ah... at the moment tahan abit k... After confinement then we go have some nice food k...

After visiting, felt that mummies are so wei da, so brave... So gan dong u noe...
No wonder my daddy always tell me tat a child's birthday is a mummy's most suffering day...
I tink thats y there is this song 世上只有妈妈好... anyway, 爸爸也一样好 la...
[maybe shld compose a song for daddy too~ so far dun hav songs for daddy hor....??]

Anyway, my cold war with mummy ended liao... Forget about it a few days later liao... =)
Not forgetting tis month 21st is mummy's birthday... Wondering how to celebrate.....

[Thanks daddy for lending me his car even though he is going out yest... =) my 1st time to drive alone to different locations within time frame... 1st time to drive alone at night... 1st time to drive at peak hour... 1st time to meet traffic jam... 1st time to pick & send fren back... so many 1st time... but glad that eveything went smoothly~ at least my passenger din grumble!]

feeling a sense of relieved~

Was feeling rather worried since september which i mention in my bloggie... But now is a total relieved after my fren called up..At least the outcum is revealed even though it is be exactly the same as expected... Phew~

Was discussing wf a fren about tis topic : Happy & Unhappy moments...
Human tends to feel that time past very fast when they are happy whereas for unhappy/sad moments, the time is crawling so slowly... Am i right? I think most people will feel the same bah.... There's is actually some psychological logic behind this de.... I remember i read it before when i was in secondary school... If i'm not wrong its Estein who found this... Anyway that doesn't matter... As i discuss with my fren, we have different views on waiting period for happy thing & unhappy things....

For my view, I wish that the waiting period to be longer as i feel that its a kind of enjoyment awaiting for happy stuffs & so call an experience or maybe reaction time for unhappy stuffs.... I explain to him that happy moment is always too short or it pass too fast till most people forgot to enjoy it when its happening... Thats y i like waiting period cos i can feel excitement in me, happily waiting & hoping for things to happen or before it actually happens... Hope keep us alive!! =) For bad/unhappy stuffs, I also prefer to wait as i need time to digest how to cope it... For me, i will get tempermental & narrow minded.. So usually i need time to look at things in different angles to find solutions to solve/console myself... Sometimes you may get to learn a lesson from it.... To me i feel tat's life!

My fren view, he dun like to wait for both happy & unhappy stuffs... He prefer both to happen soon even though how bad/unhappy is the event... He explain that at least the outcum is out & fixed rather than tru out the waiting period, you are either worrying every moment for bad stuffs or feeling too excited about the happy things may happen... He explain that the outcum will cum sooner or later, y not make known the outcum, get it done. Be it gd or bad & face it to prevent urself making wild guesses to add on worrying & daydreaming...

There's neither right nor wrong bah... Just different views.... Maybe its the difference between man & woman... Or maybe its just me who do not want to face facts so fast.... Hahaha! But anyway, during these period of worrying i did tink alot & considered alot of stuffs... Anyway, no more worrying liao....

But to be frank, at times i really like to hope for things to happen than making it to happen... I find it a rather bad habit!

[p/s : above views mention does not applys to EVERYTHING in iCe's life....]

i'm penny-less today cos i left my money & card at home~ hoping for people to pay for my expenses until i reach home tonight.... kekez!

a work-less day at work

ktv-ed & drink-ed alittle yesterday...
at least my craving is being attended!! Felt so much better after that... =)
even though its usual hangout but felt so different cos not driving.... Haha!
Totally different feel~~ so much at ease... kekeZ!

i'm actually in office now but not doing any work cos its all DONE!! All thanks to my colleagues for helping me... hehe! So my work for the day is to wait for my client to arrive lo... Haha! At times i find my job so simple & easy but there are times whereby things get sOoo complicated & problematic that you can't even get into sleep at night time... I may sound exaggerating but its realli true... Many people say that i put too much work stress on myself le thats y i get insomnia... I tink it may be partly true bah... But i just dunno how to not stress over work, especially in my situation... Anyway, dun wish to talk so much abt work.. At least today is an easy day... =)

Sitting on my chair.. Staring at daze... I recall that i have quite a number of stuffs i need to buy... This shopping list has been pending for quite sometime oredi but i just can't remember everything i go out... I even jot it down on my notebook but i just forget to it out to refer when i'm out... Forgetful me!!! i feel that as my age increase, my memory is getting from bad to worst... Resulting i used alot of "Post-It Pad" to remind myself for alot of things & causing the usage of my Post-It pad is very fast... I did classify them in different colour to determine their urgency mode... For example, Yellow for KIV stuffs, Blue for not urgent, Purple for not so urgent, Pink for super urgent... Actually so many colours i only notice Pink one cos its super urgent... The rest were there to deocorate my desk to make it more colourful & vibrant... Haha!! but of cos the colour classification still got use la... i tink i will only be stress-less if only a day i can't find any pieces of Post-It Pad around my desk... Haha!! i noe i'm dreaming~

i noe tis post is getting to no where.... just bear with it lo... just wana doing some talking/typing nia cos the rest of the day i may typing le ma....

Ok la.. Will update again if my client leave early... =)

Cheers!

bo liao~ing

feeling rather boring @ work except for the busy morning i had.... Both my electric & water supply gt problem my delicated electrician came to check out my office & at the same time PUB send people down to check out my water supply.... I ran up & down to make sure things are done nicely.... Tired me!! Tell u people.... The water from my tap is sOooo digusting till i dare not drink water today.... Cos my building was cleaning the water tank & btw i was nt informed at all... I tink everything was cause by the cleaning.... i tink i beta dun desribe much in here~ Although now is okay liao but i still dare not drink.... I went to buy 2 bottles of 1.5L of mineral water for consumption.... I hope the phobia will be gone within these few days if not i gotta bring my own water to work liao...

After the busy morning... I actually got no mood to work liao.... So i actually sit in another office to chit chat with my colleagues & at the same time see how is their work doing... Then after i came back to my office, i actually surf net & read bloggie tru out.... I read my frenz bloggie & oso my past entries.... Recall alot of things in the past... Feeling that i miss alot of things, alot of chances... being sad or happy, god or bad, i was smiling away when reading.... Din manage to read all anyway... cos I tink i had a feeling to stop....

the craving for ktv & alcohol is getting stronger...
having foul mood anyway.... Cold war with mum!!!

纯粹有些疲惫

hi all~ how's weekend? i had a tiring weekend... din manage to rest well enuff for the last few nights thats y so 疲惫 aka tired... Went shopping wf pearl on sat for her dress... She tried so on many dresses & in the end dunno which one to buy... Luckily she did manage to decide on one very nice one which i like alot too... Shopping made our legs so tired!! Tats y we oso spend alot of time sitting around for dinner & drinks & of cos chit chatting la... KekeZ! Quite sometime we din shop & eat like tis liao.... We should meet up & go out often k.... Maybe tis week can go Daiso? let me noe if u read tis.... Or any1 wana go?

Oh ya... Before i forgot... Congrats! Mummy Jocelyn had given birth to Daphne on fri noon & she claims to be finally she's out.... KekeZ! Glad that she had a smooth delivery... Take care of urself k... tis mummy is sOooo efficient tat she had oredi to upload daphne's foto on Sunday liao.... sOooooo cutie!! can't wait to see her =) i was tinking to visit her during her confinement... But dunno can visit during confinement de ma?

I tink i was tinking too much on babies liao & i dreamt tat i given birth to a baby boy last nite... I was busy playing with baby in my dream till i overslept for an hour... Nonsense dream!! Haha~

tat's about all~~

{trying to make an old pic to show tats its been long time i have my last alcohol}

[sudden crave for ktv... sudden crave for alcohol... sudden crave to la kopi... any1??]

dun feel good =(

i'm in dilemma~
i tink i'm too stress these days till i even dream of wat i bothering...
feeling down, feeling unhappy, feeling very unwell & uneasy~
feeling very extremely negative since i woke up tis morning...

i secretly tear when on my way to work...
Haiz~

wat happen to me??

finally i did my 1st threading for FREE~

Over the weekends, i happens to found out that there is threading services just a 5min walk from my home... So excited & hapi~ I even book an appt for it but in the end i din go becos i got last min date & somehow i hesitate lor~ Tinking abt the pain my gals describe i'm oredi shivering le.. Then plus i'm afraid tat somehow it will cos irritation on my face.... But yesterday was asking mummy abit threading & she say list me the pro & cons of it... Saying that its good etc etc... Even daddy oso comment that its good.... So with so many gd comments, i finally decided to go & try it... Then mummy & daddy ask me y i ask so much abt threading then i told them i never do b4 mah.... U know wat they say!!!!

Mummy : "U wana try ah.... Go home i do for u lor...."
Me : "............" [silently tinking dunno whether can trust ant...]
Daddy to Mummy : "U really know meh? Who teach u?"
Mummy : "Aiyah.. so easy! Last time young learn before mah..... i even do for myself!"
Daddy : "i oso noe how to do ley..... last time ah ma teach me before!"
Me : "HUH!! u oso know ah..... But very long ago liao la.... u all still remember meh...?"
Mummy : "go home i show u...."
Daddy : "if mum cannot make it then i do for u!!"
Me : (-______-)" [keep quiet lo]

In the end, my 1st threading session was done at my home with me lying on sofa while both threading beautician beside me... 1 apply powder, 1 thread.... Poor me lying there enduring the pain & their discussion/debate on the topic "How to do threading"
Halfway tru, i'm oredi in pain like mad liao.... My mum keep on asking me "pain anot>?" Luckily she manage to finish the whole face cos she tot of stoping halfway tru de... she say i keep screaming "Aiyoh.... Ooooo... ahahhhhhh" Hahahha... Cannot blame mah... 1st timer ley.... dunno how pain is pain mah.... But after awhile jiu feel not so painful liao... Or maybe numb liao bah... Haha!!!

Check on mirror & see that there's no big diff ley... Maybe still din thread enuff bah.... Can see some parts really hairless & smoother abit... Mummy claims that i do not have much facial hairs... [dunno isit she can't see or really dun hav...] Maybe in another 2-3wks, i go n try my neighbourhood de.... See got difference mah.... Hahaha!!

Thanks Mummy & Daddy for the FREE threading service.... I try it out myself yest & found out that it isn't very difficult though... Can do for myself next time for small portion like eyebrows... But of cos for a good threading i tink seek Professional is still the best choice...

distracting myself

Was a kinda bad day.... woke up feeling nt enuff sleep... no appetite for breakfast... reach office at 9am & saw that my order was a total chaos... Was feeling so bad till i can't even bother to react/scold any1... I tink tml then i scold bah... everything seems so un-right today... Haiz!!

My head is aching like nobody's business... Feeling giddy since morning.... I wonder is it becos i haven eat anything for today yet... I'm drinking my 2nd coffee nw but it doesn't seems to help to keep me awake... haiz!! Was actually feeling giddy, restless, lazy & hungry or shld i say famished right at tis moment... Complicated hor... Feel shitty!! Trying to distract myself by typing a post as i hardly update anything these days...

Oh ya! One thing i wana jot it down.... 27th September was Andy Lau aka my hubby's birthday... Read the newspaper & gt to noe that he is 47 oredi.... Wow! we have a 23yrs age gap... Pretty large & disheartening figures.... Can't believe myself to be so in luv with tis OLD guy... Haha!! [just bear with the craziness when talking about him..... cannot control]

During weekend, went to celebrate my little nephew Jayden's 1st Birthday... He so cute~ so adorable~ I took alot of his pics... Will update a few once done with uploading...

Right at tis moment just show alittle bit of his cute-ness... His birthday cake!!! Tadah~

I noe my post is getting to no where cos i gt nothing in mind to blog... So its bits & pieces everywhere... As i said it a post "distracting myself"....

Please bear with it lo~~

Wasn't feeling gd these days... kinda worried about a fren...

[Craving for steamboat again tonight.... But my handphone doesn't seems to ring ley.... Sigh~]

Kazu Sumi-yaki

Yest dinner had Japanese Food... It was my treat as a belated birthday dinner for my fren... I actually plan a list of places for him to chose & he chosen this Japanese Restaurant name Kazu @ Cuppage which served mostly grilled & bbq stuffs... A very nice place to enjoy jap food & quite a lay back place to relac after a tired day.. Similar to Japan 居酒屋... Tried quite a few dish as the portion of food wasn't very big... Below are the names of the dish... Only remembered the english name... Some of the Jap name, i forgot le..


1st pic is the Yanagigarei Bata aka pan fried fish with sauce recommended by that waitress cos we she tink that we din order much food. Taste Ok.. I only ate alittle of it & its semi raw roe..
2nd pic is Tontoro & the other one is yam wrap with pork.. Forgotten the name of it but both taste nice... Especially Tontoro , my Fav!! i like pork~
3rd pic is duck with euro which i tink its the sauce on it & Gyu tongue [cow tongue].. I know its sounds abit gross as we hesitate awhile before ordering... But its turn out to be amazingly juicy & yummie. [p/s : just dun remind urself wat it is lo...]
4th pic is chicken skin order by the bday boi... He said its nice but i feel its okay lo... I only ate half if it then pass to him liao...
5th pic is suppose to be appetizer but we ordered near to the end of our dinner... It state tofu in menu but doesn't look like one... We tried & renamed it as "Cold Chawanmushi with Roe on it" I taste egg in it too.. Maybe its egg tofu lo... I like tis cos its rather refreshing...
6th pic : If i din remember wrongly tis is actually Chicken Knee... Sounds funny rite... We imagined where on earth is chix knee??? Haha!! Cos of its interesting name, we ordered & turn out to be a nice dish too~~ Was giggling away when eating the knees... Counting how many chix was knee-less..... Kekez!






And last but not least, i wana share with you all the dish that me & bday boi like the most...
Its Ootoro sashimi aka Blue Fin Tuna.... Nicely presented hor... They have fat & semi fat Ootoro but we ordered semi fat de cos scared that fat one too fattening... Haha! Its super soft, super tender... It really melts in ur mouth without the hassle of chewing... Heavenly taste~ With such a heavenly tasty food in our stomach, we were wondering how much does it cost? The waitress did ask how many slice we want & we order 4 slice cos we wanted try other food too~ And u guess how much was it??

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Tadah~ Ootoro cost $12 per slice... And both of us softly whispered to each other the price stated in menu was the price for per slice not per portion... Gosh! Luckily we din order again cos we din haven intention but too full liao.... This is the most EXPENSIVE sashimi that I/We have eaten in our life... Tinking back the heavenly taste of cos gotta pay a certain price mah... Not grumbling la... Just shocking to find out the pricing of it.... We were discussing on the Ootoro for awhile & we conclude that this Blue Fin Tuna must have taken Business Class Flight from Hokkaido to Singapore.. If not it must haven taken cruise & enjoyed the Spa packaging in cruise before arriving Singapore... KekekeZ... Joking away nia~ When i got home, i read the receipt again & find out another expensive thing which i din take photo of it... Sigh~ Its the Grilled Shitake Mushroom which cost $8+++ Its expensive becos we only receive 2 Shitake Mushroom size ard 6cm diameter cut into halfs... Its nice & juicy enuff but not worth the price compared to Ootoro... I never ate such EXPENSIVE mushroom before...

Overall, the food was delicious & worth the price except Shitake Mushroom... Only some of the dish are expensive [eg. sashimi]... The rest was quite alright... Slightly abit more expensive cos of the freshness & quality food... skewer food cost ard $1.60 - $9 per stick... Can try if u like Japanese bbq stuffs... Alot of interesting dish.... For sashimi lover, MUST TRY provided u willing to spend lo.... Really! Nvr bluff u...

End of the day, both of us like the food alot& I will definitely visit Kazu again without ordering sashimi...... Unless some1 else willing to foot the bill... Kekekez....

[still imaginig Ootoro taste lingering in the mouth..... sssSlurp!]

Sweaty Panty Sunday

Visited tis place on Sunday morning with my daddy, mummy & didi... Its the Henderson Bridge @ Mt Faber... If i'm not wrong, it actually leads to Telok Balangah.... The bridge is really an eye opening... I never seen such big, long, curvy & high bridge in before... Initially gt a little panic cos i'm abit afraid of heights.. But after awhile felt alright le.... Bridge made of wooden planks which occasionally u can see the traffic tru the gap between the planks... I took the courage to look down from the bridge & my legs were abit shaky... Keke! [din get much info of tat bridge cos too tired to read the information board liao]

Weather was good as Sun is doing his job up there! We took nearly 2hr to complete the Mt Faber journey including finding bridge plus kaypohing plus disturbing insects, squirrels, chamelon & even snake... Haha! Not me not me... Its my mummy & daddy... A super long & tiring journey cos of the up & down slopes... All thanks to my Officier daddy & Commando didi... They lead mummy & me into the forest which claims to be the shorter route... Indeed it is shorter... But the slopes made us really perspire & pant like mad... This haven ended... We head over to Labrador Park & again hill climbing.... Went there before wf Suling & frens for fishing last year... I'm sure Suling & Leon wouldn't forget tat experience that we climbed tat hill on a rainy day jus to go fishing at the Jetty...

Overall we enjoyed our "Sweaty Panty Sunday" very much.... We even plan next Sunday trip liao.... Another sweaty sunday cuming along...

Unsleep Mode

i noe its late oredi... But i jus dunno y i couldn'y get to sleep... sigh~ its been a long day for me today & yet i'm not feeling tired... work plus tuition session with my little cousin till 11pm right after work... By the way, i started to be tutor for 1 wk liao... today is the 3rd session... Never knew i have such patience when teaching such hyper child... But of cos i'm still the stern 'ah bing jie jie'.. I have to cos if not he will be nasty with me... I still love kids & love to pamper them de... I wonder y am i not tired after teaching tis hyper active child... i should be super tired isn't it!!!

Anyway, i'm having sleeping problems for some time le... And I actually got myself a supplement from GNC to prompt restful sleeps.... As told it will cos drowsiness & make u wanting to sleep... Sounds like what i wanted most these days & the word "restful sleep" lure me to pay for it... Kekez! Its jus cherry flavoured tablets for u to put under ur tongue & let it dissolve... Very small nia... Size is slightly bigger than Smint... Most important is that its effective!!!! But i dun wish to rely on it cos i tink its still not very good if taken often bah... so i try not to take it too often... Only try 3 times so far... Each time 1 so i still gt 117 tablets more... Alot isn't it!! Wana try...? i sell in per piece mannner.... Hahaha~ [kidding la~]

Am still considering whether to take anot? Cos i dun need to wake up early tml... Hmm~ Should i continue to watch DVD til dawn??

About DVD~ I just finish watching "$ nt enuff" not a bad show.... I love that Old auntie in tat show... I tink she is nickname as FAB auntie... Her acting is really gd sia... So ke lianz... SOme people may find their family issue abit exaggerating but dun be surprise its happening around u... At least i did personally experience tis kind of incidence myself... Its even more kua zhang than the show... As quoted by a fren when i tell him part of my family issue :"Ur family problem so drama de... If being taken by mediacorp as storyline will be a super duper long & interesting drama series sia..." Can u imagine how drama is drama!!! For u to imagine...
Back to DVD, i still gt my hong kong series waiting for me to start.... Tang Xin Feng Bao II... Dunno nice not... Feel in luv with HK drama since 7yrs ago... From a cantonese idiot to the current me who is able to understand & speak alittle considered fluent cantonese... Not bad sia~ All thanks to TC who reccommend me to take tis 'dialect class' which lasted 7yrs liao & its still going on & on...

Oops! Before i forget... Its his birthday today....

Happy Birthday to U
Happy Birthday to U
Happy Birthday to Tien Cheng....
Happy Birthday to Uuuuuuu


Okay... I tink my Zzzz monster is on his way liao... i can feel its arrival liao... NiteZ peepZ~

Wat a coincidence... <1709>

1 year ago on this very day... Something major happen which affect me alot & change alot of things/routine in my life.....

1 year later on the same day... Another thing happen which also affect me so deeply till i do not noe how to react/express any feelings.....



I am asking myself why is sOoooo coincidence or is it jus my fate???
Tear gland wasn't working today... Was tinking is it becos last year tear gland was working rather hard which result in tearless tis year...



i tink i gonna mark tis day in my calender to be my NOT MY DAY!!!

i hate 1709...

some thoughts...

yesterday nite i poured out so many things to my fren..... these things have been kept deeply in my heart & i dun even bother/hardly share with my frenz cos i feel i'm crazily insane.... I think no one will bother to listen to me bah... i wonder why i talk so much yesterday & din even care to bother what i have said... =_=''

in the end, my fren just tell me...


"Ah mui, u are too young to say those stuffs liao.... U still have a long long way to go tru...."


Really gt a long long way to go mah??? this makes me recall back when i was 16... a feng shui master told me that i will live till at least 80 or 90 years old & lead a wonderfully happy & blissful life.... ONLY IF i pass tru the major crisis in my 20s... IF NOT, i wun live pass my 30s....
Hmm... So sometimes i always doubt i have a long long way to go even though i'm not that superstitious...

[having headache day 3 --- panadol dun help!]

~Thank you~

Wana thank my galz for celebrating my birthday on Sunday & they bought me a cake [which i din noe abt it] so sweet of them!!! Thanks Aunt Maggie & Uncle Johnny for the food supply & their entertainment session while we were eating... Haha! The steamboat session was great with u galz... Reminds me those days when we were in sec school... We always hang ard at Pearl's Jurong house... We used to sit ard together chit chatting, gossiping & gigling... Hahaha~

On saturday, there was another surprise from my family, with all my aunt, uncles & grandparents & all cousins around... So pai seh ley!! I was so shy when they off lights & sing me a birthday song... Everybody knew there was a cake cutting session but me... No wonder everybody seems so secretive tat day when we were at grandparents house having dinner... i tot i was too sensitive.... In the end, i found out that its my parents & bro who arrange all these... Thanks mummy, daddy & didi...

On fri i feel that i jus wana hav a peace & relac day & so i arrange for a spa & massage session... Its was quite nice la... At least i felt relieved after the whole thing... Jus tat i feel whole body ache the next 2 days... Initially I tot my birthday will end like tat tis year until my phone ring just before i prepared to sleep... It was another surprise cuming along which i oso din noe about it at all... Cos i was chatting with my fren on phone & was feeling abit drowsy becos of the massage... I got shocked when my fren suddenly asked me to look out of my window cos we were talking about spooky stuffs... Scare me sia... But it turned out to be another cake surprise la... Not ghost la!! Thanks for the scary surprise & present =) Haha~

In total, this year i have 3 cakes on 3 consecutive days... Somemore the cute thing is all are Chocolate de... Haha!! Wat a coincidence...

Anyway, i noe i hav mention many time in tis post liao but still wana say 1 last time, Thanks you all of u for the surprises & birthday greetings from many people that make this birthday a great one [which initially i tot it will jus be another day in calander] I really appreciate alot alot... HugZz!

i turn 24 today~

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Happy Birthday to iCy~

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Happy Birthday to me!!

his birthday card

i received an oversea mail today...
i was surprised to see a birthday card from him...
Complicated feelings!! i dunno shld i be happy or dishearten or disappointed or sad...
Happy becos he remember & care to send me greetings from so far away & telling me he is fine...
Dishearten becos our simple wish to celebrate my birthday, not being able to be come true...
Disappointed becos he left w/o a word & din leave me any ways to contact him...
Sad becos i haven got the chance to let him explain to me everything & i tink will never have any chance le bah...

jus wana jot down my complicated feelings... =)
had my manicure done just down & chosen his fav nail colour which i never try before...
Then cum hm jiu saw his mail liao... Wat a coincidence~

Wondering will i be able to get to sleep with so many complicated feelings......

met up wf my galz..

Meet up the galz yest at BPP... Diana, Suling & Pearl... Suppose to hav dinner but turn out to be munching junk food at Mos & not forgetting lotsa chit chat & laughter~

Saw how diana complaining about her new hair cut & pointing to us the culprit who 'destroy' her hair.. keke! Dun worry gal, hair will grow back de... U still look as bubbly & pretty =) And not forgeting to thank her for the biscuit/shortcakes she bought for us... niCe!
Saw suling doin pretty well with her treatment & abit darker skin tone which she explain maybe is the light during treatment... Really can see results le wor.... Keep it upZ! u can do it de...
Saw pearl having the tired look... dunno is it due to a tired work day or missing her hubby or its jus tat ''being forced to come de look"... Haha! [btw, i try all means to change meeting place for her convenience & forced her to come de lo... If nt she dun even wanna come out lo.... i even pay 50% cab fare for suling to agree to meet at BPP... jus becos of pearl & partly myself la...] Hehe.... Glad to know that pearl feel better after our meet up~

tat evening, 4 of us bought the Citi Spa voucher for massage/facial cos diana was promoting abt it... Diana bought it earlier in the noon & tell us abt it... End up we were all convince & bought 1 to try.... All of us was blaming diana tat she make us spend $$ the whole evening, like a promoter... Haha!! Oso bought a cheap cheap handphone stand... Actually I like both piglet & eeyore but i still chose piglet cos whenever i see eeyore, it will bring back some unwanted memories... That explain y i chose piglet even though i told u galz that i like eeyore beta... Anyway, piglet is cute too~ And its pink! i Luv pink... =)

After the meet up was rather tired le... Pearl still remember that i will req her to walk with me to the bus stop nearer to me home whereas she can take from the bus stop near bpp.... Thank ley... Appreciate it~ By the time we reach bus top, i saw her delighted cum excited smile when her phone ring with the initial D ringtone [if i'm nt wrong]... Her hubby called.... So i dun disturb liao lo... hehe! Can feel that she is happy & feeling much beta & oso the blissful-ness...
i'm glad~

Even though i'm tired, i still can't sleep when i gt hm... i wonder y oso... Watch hk series till 3am then forced myself to sleep... i tink i'm too afraid to sleep cause been having lotsa dreams which made me super duper tired.... i tink my mind can't rest these days bah~ Somemore plus the aching allover my body... Tat's y i bought the citi spa massage.. i tink i need one massage urgently! will be going on thurs evening wf pearl... heeZ! excited~

Looking forward for tis sunday cos my sweet bang galz organise a steamboat session... To gather & oso to celebrate my birthday which i tink they wana laugh at me being 1 year older bah... =_='' [joking la...] I actually cancel or shld i say postpone my holiday trip bcos of tis gathering wf my galz.... I appreciate alot for making the effort to organise... Thanks galz!!

Gotta do my work liao.... Having a few meetings today....

Personal Things To Do This Week:
1) Relaxing Massage
2) Manicure
3) Eyebrow Trimming
4) Perm Hair (Still considering... Shld i?)
5) A Good Sleep

讲讲而已

Finally i had my long waiting steamboat... Been craving for it since 2-3mths ago but haven got a chance to go... Only until yesterday, i'm able to enjoy my all time fav steamboat @ Golden Mile... Yummie Yummie [slurp~]... Serving isn't very big or its is rather small bah... But its the quality of the food tat counts mah... Thumbs up!! Just tat it's abit costly for the quantity but worth for the quality... =)

Yesterday i oso did a stupid thing... I drove my fren's car to the Eastside to fulfil my revengeful desire... Sounds serious huh... Haha!! But i din do anything la... Just happens to be ard there so just dropby to tat unfamiliar place which i haven been stepping in for a year plus or two, to have a look lor.... Tinking back during tat split moment when tat incident happen, i did have tots to do something reckless... I remembered i called my fren & asked him to drive me to Eastside to burn dwn tat bike.... Till then tat fren still rememeber it... Haha! Tat's y yesterday my fren was quite worried when i rch & step out of the car... He kept asking me "你要做什么?" then i kept replying "只是看看而已啦..." And true enuff i fulfil my revenge by 看看而已 loh... Kinda stupid actually... I know myself well enuff tat of cos i wun do anything foolish tat hurt or harm others or even a thing... Watever i say during that time is due to my anger & dissappointment... Or just a kind of imagination that make me feel beta or to vent anger... Keke! 讲讲而已啦... Even after i finish my 看看 journey & sit back in car... I still say a full bunch of craps on Just now wat i should do etc etc etc blah blah blah [censored!! too violent liao].... We joke on the whole issue... I remember a i say if 君子 wana take revenge, its nt too late to wait till 10yrs [a chinese saying]... Then he reply me.... wait till 10yrs later u cannot find that bike liao lo.... People change bike/car move house liao lo... Lame ley!

End of the day i tell my fren 以上只是讲讲而已啦... 我不是这样的人... And u noe wat my fren said, 我知道你不是这样的人, 可是有时候难讲的wor............. -_-''
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But i noe i wun de la....




P/S : i haven finish the happy book... will updatez the happy formula post when i'm done wf the book... delay delay.... As usual, 讲讲而已...

''Bookie days''

keke... bookie days meaning the days with book nothing illegal k...

As refer to previous posts, thanks for all the care & concerns.. I'm feeling better le... Dun worry k!! As for how did I felt beta is due to a Book... On that day when i'm feeling down, I actually went to library to calm/cool down myself in the slienct place.... Its been long that i step into public library & i even had a stupid incident there... Elaborate later... As i say i wanted to calm myself so i jus walk ard to grab a book & sit down.... And so coincidence, i saw this book title : Feel Happy Now! So i jiu take lor.... To my surprise, i actually read it & even completed half of the book within the 1.5hr.... To be frank, i'm nt a reading person till to the extend whereby when i open a book i tends to feel sleepy... Keke! But tat day was somehow or rather weird me to read so much... Cos after reading it, i actually felt better... Really better! I was so amaze untill i wanted to borrow it so much! I tink i will completed it by tis weekend cos i oso borrowed another 3 books to maximise the use of borrowing even though i might nt read [i'm a typical kiasu sporean]... Will share with u all that book in my next post k... Cos it actually teaches u the "Happy Formula" [tis will be my next blog post topic] Stay tune..

As i mention earlier, i had a stupid incident.. Here it is! Cos after i chosen the books, i walked to the borrowing machine which is rather new & alien to me... I stood there for like 5min to figure out how to use it cos i tink got more than 10 yrs din borrow books liao... Luckily nobody is in the Q, if nt they sure laugh at tis 'sua gu' de... Finally i figured out liao, i happliy follow the instructions but that stupid machine prompt me a message saying that tat book cannot be borrowed & ask me to proceed to counter... I tried with all books & different machine oso same message... I was so disappointed & scared cos for a moment i tot i spoil that machine or did i have bad records with National Library Board... So i guai guai proceed to counter & tell the customer service abt tat error & gave her my NRIC.... Felt abit awkward until i wanted to tell her i dun want to borrow liao.... But before i open my mouth, tis customer svc lady tells me that the error is due to because i long time din borrow books liao, so the system cannot get my data... I was like "HUH"... like that oso got error.... But after so updating, the problems is solved liao.... I even jokingly asked her so how often do i need to update my detail so to prevent such error when borrowing again?... Keke! So to those people who are just like me, super long never go library liao.. Please go update ur details with National Library Board in order to enjoy the privilledges borrowing books & etc.... Most impt, dun get panic when u see that alien borrowing machine or the error msg when borrowing books... Its just a system error!! Hahaha~
Now i'm tinking, how to return the books huh? i never see any returning machines in library ley... Anybody hav any idea?

I tink these few days will be indulging myself with books... Just like last 2 nights, i actually read till i felt sleepy before i turn off my table lamp.... Moreover, i feel that reading isn't as boring as i tot... I officially announce that i hav a new hobby : Reading [although it will not be my all time fav hobby, but at least for the time being i like it]
I even put a book in my baggie wherever i go these days... My DS Lite must be so jealous that i neglect him... Keke!

Btw, want to remind that today & tml (22nd & 23rd) have fireworks @ Marina Bay... Can go somewhere ard there to see see k... Should be very nice & romantic... At the same time will be CROWDED too... As for me, maybe i will be going la... Today will be having dinner wf a fren, if times allow then will go to that Ulu Ulu place to watch fireworks... Provided i still remember the way to the ulu place.... If nt gota ask whether my fren remembered ma....

Enjoy ur friday & weekend....


Note : Next post on "Happy Formula"...

a missed call

i'm so sick & tired of everything... Reality is so evil! Facts are so undesirable!!

i'm having a really bad mood today... i wonder y am i unhappy about? i can't really figured out myself... Is it becos tat i blame myself for not answering that call last night or is it that i'm angry over the voice mail left behind... I really dunno...
Kinda regret tat i retrieve tat voice mail only tis morning... i shldn't have... if nt it wouldn't triggered my 2nd tots which i hate... If given the choice again, i would rather answer tat call than listen to the voice mail... At least i will feel beta bah~

Words i wanted to say to him :
Same like u, i really duno wat to say too... i will take care~ u too... Bon voyage~

@ post specially for my dear Adeline

Just read ur latest post on ur bloggie...

Dun worry gal... Although we din meet up as frequent as before due to our busy schdules & worktime & social life... But we know we do still care for each other de... No matter wat, we will still squeeze out time to meet up when possible de mah.... After ther 11yrs of training, we are still as 38, as crappy, as 'bo chap' our image by laughing as loud as possible when we getting together... Wahahaha~

Sometimes i do feel as bad for not able to turn up for outing... True enuff its really hard to get 6 of us together... But i'm sure still got chance de la.... Looking forward for the cuming meet up before the Genting trip [suling mention to me, me still in pending mode due to my leave!!]...

Last but not least, just wana remind u that BANGZ is 5galz plus u 6 [who did u miss out huh!!!] And another most IMPORTANT thing... We are just A PHONE CALL away.... Miss me then call me lo... Kekeke!! [btw, i rebond hair liao ley.... Know me so long nvr see me wf straight hair hor....]

Enjoy ur HK shopping trip....

[i tink u should know y i post tis pic..... Beta dun mention in here.... we noe jiu hao!!]

Memories in a box

i nearly forgotten that i hav a box keeping all stuffs related to him.... Cards he gave me during special days, small gifts, small handicrafts he made for me etc etc. I din remember i kept so many of our past until yesterday. That full box brought back alot of memories when i took out those things 1 by 1..... It was way back since 2004...

I clearly remember the reason hw & why i accepted him tat time cos it took me alot of courage & consideration & time plus alot of peers nagging at me.. I din put in much hope in our relationship cos i always claims that me & him was a ridiculous pair cos i feel that we came from different world, different character, different mentality but instead we click well... Due to so many differences, i dun expect any future wf him.. During that period of time, my friends think that i'm bad/weird cos i start tis relationship wf tis guy but dun see him in my future picture of life... Haha! I dunno y i have such instincts..... Anyway, my instincts are proven right after 3 yrs....
So the moral of the story is : Gal's instincts are accurate... Not 100% but at least got 80%... haha!

As i mention, i took out those things to see & read... I found a booklet which record down every bits & pieces before we actually got together... how we laugh, how we quarrel, how we apologise, stupid things we done.. Wat he do to make me happy, how i bully him, wat he sacrifice for me, how did he balance his work, his family & me... Feeling kinda sweet when reading.... As for the cards, they remind me of the 1st card he gave it to me... I actually tell him that its a waste of $ to buy me cards cos its super expensive for just 1 piece of paper... How bad am i!! But after getting to know him better, i knew that is his habit to give cards... Cos he would spend time to find that card not just grab jiu pay liao de... The cards he chosen hav meaning de... Thats y i read & kept all of it... But when i was reading it yest, other than its abit mushy, i found out something which i din noe all these while... I found out that i'm not being a nice gf... Some of the things he mention to me, i din even put it to heart... Until now then i realise it... Maybe i did gradually contribute to tis break up bah...

Every relationship have something to learn... In tis one, i learn alot... Patience, tolerance, forgiviness, anger management, determination, how to wear a natural smile in ur lousiest mood [i tink tats y i din hav much complains when i was in customer svc] & how to be 小女人.... Something like a 3yrs course rite... Keke! In a relationship, its not about who is right who is wrong... It takes 2 hands to clap anyway... People ask me did i blame him or angry wf him... To be frank, i din... Nothing to blame on... Maybe got alittle angry becos he din have courage to face it bah... Other than that nothing else liao bah... Anyway, tis 3yr course is rather fruitful to me... At least i learn so many EQ thingy...

As for the box, its still beside my bed cos last night read till fell asleep... I tink i will just place it back into my cupboard bah.... Dunno when will i open again...

~ argh ~

i'm having a very bad hangover since yest morning

All thanks to saturday's nite session

i din know i will hangover till so jialat de...

Come to tink of it, i din noe exactly how i got back home oso

the last thing i remembered was that i was chatting in car........

then the next thing is Sunday morning lo...

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its been a long time that i experience tis liao....

no good X2

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