some moments for myself

i just stop my clock for a moment to let myself rest alittle & enjoy some moments for myself...

To bluff myself tat i've got alittle moment to enjoy my nicely freshly brewed coffee & enjoying raindrops view on my glass window & surroundings...

Sometimes i do believe in casting away everything & enjoy "THAT" very moment...
It helps to rest my mind & soul to have a feel of time stopping...

It feels great u noe.... Especially when u are nt in right state....

at least it works for me~

ya... indeed i'm not in right mood today... just like the weather...

hazy... drizzling... moody...

潜意识的我

i wonder why i had tis dream last night... I've been preventing & stopping myself from tinking or brooding over those stuffs liao... But i tink i'm subconsciously brooding over this issue till i'm unaware or dun want to remind myself about it bah... So resulting in 潜意识 [subconsciousness] dreaming of it... Indeed i'm glad about the dream which i feel very bad & shouldn't have felt tis way la... But i guess my dream had reflect my true self, my realli real true feelings that i wish it happens bah... Be it good or bad~

Last 2 days was chatting with my fren Surong... She reminded me that its been sometimes that we seen each other which i recall to be more than 3mths bah... Time realli flies wor... I was stunned that its been so long... I guess i seldom take my initiative to contact my frenz to chat abt their life & things happening around them... I remembered i used to be hogging on the phone for at least 5hours per day but now the reluctance & forgetfulness & laziness to call especially after i started my worklife... Sometimes i felt that my worklife actually contribute to my quiet self... Please bear with me if tis behaviour really annoy u all~ Its not that i dun care k... I just forgt to remind myself to call... Time to time i will try to remind myself more frequently...

As mention was chatting with Surong about her relationship... She kept on complaining abt her bf tis & tat etc etc... She mention that i'm comforting her like as if i'm a Love Consultant/Love Guru... Haha! Dun tink i'm suitable for that name cos i dun believe in it... But i'm quite shock about the way i comfort her cos subconciously i felt that i'm able to see a broader picture than before & view relationship in different aspects/views even though i dun trully believe in love... I was tinking how cum i din use the same tactic to comfort myself when i faced similar problems in the past... Haha! Maybe my subciousness not that strong to overcum bah~

Please put on your thinking cap... Just wana share abit:

Do u people quarrel or do u hear people quarrel before? Have u ever really listen on how people quarrel? Did u notice when people quarrel, they will often use "U.... U.... U... U...." Seldom they will use "I.... I.... I..." even if hav, it will be a question as in "Wat about me? i got wrong meh? Am i wrong?" This is how quarrel aroused bah... Often when u cooled down, u will feel that u r nt right & contributed to the quarrel too.... It always take 2 hands to clap de... I feel that if each party mention more about "I... I... I..." I believe things will get much better bah.... i dunno am i right or wrong but tis is how i feel... At least i use this & seldom quarrel with people mah... Haha~

But just to add on.... Said is easier than done~ I'm human too, I do forget tis tactic at times & end up quarreling too....But at least subconciously i try mah...

No harm to trying~

tiRed weekenD + mummy birthday

Today is mummy's birthday~ Wish her prettie always & most importantly good health... Din celebrate last week cos due to the busy weekend we hav... Not celebrating today as didi is nt around... But dun worry! We are celebrating it on fri when didi book out.... Daddy & me just went to order a special cake for mummy... Can't wait to see the cake!! Kekez....
As for today, will treat her to makan her fav Jap food... Just called her & she told me she is all ready for food cos she haven eaten her lunch... Hahah~

As i mention earlier, i had a busy weekend... Felt really tiring tru out as both days i used my legs too much!! Saturday went to work part time wf suling, leon & yiru... Stand tru out for so many hours make our legs so sore... But its kinda fun even though with lots of complain... I actually felt kinda weird initially cos i'm holding a full time managing workers for these years & all of a sudden i change to a worker role... Not used to it la... Cos initially i felt i work as if i'm working for my company & its totally a kind shit manz... I nearly scold my partners beside me.... But things get better when i kept reminding myself that i'm worker nt manager... Haha! Learn quite a number of things there even though its just a simple job... I tink sometimes i do need to change role to tink from a worker point of view too... Was wondering am i able to make for tis sat session... Hmm~



Then sunday was another sweaty one... Was quite reluctant to go morning exercise wf my family due to the tiredness despite the early knock out.... But still forced myself to go la... If not i would not hav take so many photos again... Tis time went to Telok Blangah Hill Forest walk.... Its actually a bridge [as refer to the pics] that lead from the hill top to hill bottm...
Then it link towards the Hort Park which we went last sunday... A very very very long metal bridge that was built above ground at least got 3-4 storeys high... Was trembling when i look downwards as i got a little height phobia & somemore the bridge got loop holes for u to peek tru.... Was shivering especially when walking upwards... FYI, we climb down then visit the Hort Park again then climb back... A to & fro journey.... Wasn't tat sunny compared to last week, in fact it drizzles alittle... =) Took quite a number of pics actually... will uoload again cos pc gt alittle problem... In the mean time just to show u one very cute pic my parent pose for....

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[above photograph proudly presented by ice & kai]

busy week

been busy these days... Everyday seems nt enuff time, not enuff sleep... But at least i accomplished a few pending stuffs for this week with the convenience of car... Finally went Daiso wf pearl on tues but we rch only at 8.40pm... Which means we only hav 1hr & 20min to shop = not enuff.... Despite the little time we hav, we still manage to fill our trolley wf lots of things.. In fact its just my things... Pearl comment that i shop untill its frEe de.. Haha! actually my mind was blank when i'm there... I forgotten wat i need to buy liao... Only manage to recall a few nia... In the end, i bought alot of boxes... Haha.. Luckily gt car, i can't imagine i take public transport wf all the shopping bags... keke!

Oso went to meet Qi, Suling & Yiru on wed @ St James for a celebration for Suling cos she finally finish her slimming thingy & end result was good!!! So we intend to hav a small celebration wf ladies only... So i actually cancel my tuiton & went for nite out~ =) We did enjoy ourselves tat night with the games & drinks... And not forgetting watching Suling laughing away cos she was a little high~ Hahaha~ Dunno why/wat she is laughing abt... keke! Anyway i went there with a mission which is to take a pic of suling *****[beta dun say la].... Anyway, my mission was accomplished!! Haha... I haven show the main lead yet... Keke! Suppose to have another gal joining us de... But in the end she fly us aeroplane.... We was so sad & disappointed =_='' u noe who u r la hor.... Aeroplane Queen!!! kekez... Anyway, aeroplane queen got her revenge liao.... Wahahaha~ me & suling plan for the whole revenge to trick her.... =p

As for yest, went straight to suling place to pass her things & tabao dinner to eat wf her... Paiseh for the late dinner cos was rushing tru out & the traffic abit heavy & oso i dunno the way la... While we were eating, we were oso watching the tv prog that she joined de, forget wat name liao.... Next week will be her turn liao... Saw abit of advertisement le... Looking forward for the whole programme next week... Keke! After i left suling place, i went to car wash.... My 1st time... hehe! so fun... Was too lazy to wash it myself so i pay lo...

I tink today will be the most relaxing day but i assume to be extra tiring cos today is tuition day... Tinking of cancelling but i guess i can't bah cos next week will be exam week liao.. And somemore tml i wun be free for the make up lesson for wed session... Hope that today wun be too angry during tuition~

As for tml, suling, leon, yiru & me will be going expo for a part time job... Haha! Been so long time tat i work part time... Tink its gonna be fun bah... Thats y i agree wf it... Tinking of the tiredness & travelling time, i wonder can i take it mah....

Sunday wise, i tink my family is having a small celebration for mummy's birthday bah... Not confirm is it Sat or Sun.... Gotta chk wf didi & daddy tonight le...


Very packed & busy week hor.... But i felt happy~ Especially the days with 'Bluie'... Dreaming of having my own car now... GeeZ! Oso felt that my driving skills has improved tru out the week le... =) And i din noe i got fan as in fen si... a guy gave me his number & req me to call him as he say he likes to hear me sing... Keke! i noe its abit ridiculous la but just felt happy mah... But of cos i wun call him la... Tat's nt my kind of doing... Anyway, I oso dunno where i throw his number liao... Kekez... i noe i'm mei li mao la...


Felt so happy to hav fen si.... While my fren just so jealous abt it~ haha..... OK! Enuff of dreaming liao... Its time to 'BANG GANG' [hokkien phrase : off work] liao~

Photo of Kent Ridge Park & Hort Park

Wasn't feeling good today... So instead of working, i'm actually uploading pics to ease my frustration & hoping that the nature pictures can cool me off abit... Only manage to upload some of it here cos the file all too big liao...

I tink its due to the strong sunlight that make the colours so vibrant in the pics~

Kent Ridge Park & Hort Park

(did u see me out there?keke~)

Its a 36 degree day.. Super hot!!!

Hot until even the fishes were hiding under shade... They swam reverse way to park themselves under the shade... Haha~ cutE!

the green green scenery

the pond @ Hort Park...

I manage to capture pictures of dragonfly resting~

~ the flowers piCs ~

~My fav shot~

Lastly is a magic shot... =)
(Clockwise: my hand, my didi, my dad)

a disaster weekend

Phew~ Finally finish my morning work... At least now got abit of time to blog... I noe i seldom updates during weekend cos due to laziness or business.... Keke! Tis time is actually angry-ness!!! I actually had my tuition remedial lesson on saturday due to fri session was incomplete.... Wat a blood boil...ING session!! Initially was tinkng of a light session then bring the 2 children (niece & nephew) out for ice cream at Swensen... In the end, i was too irritated cum no mood till i only brought niece for ice cream at Mama shop to just fulfiled my ice-cream promise... My nephew was totally a freaking irritating crook!!! Its was only a 3hr session & he is able to make me shout at the peak of my voice... In the end i told my nephew that i can't tolerate liao... My hair is going to stand if i continue with him... So i just went off with my niece & left him in the house with his maid... A total 2 days of disaster!! On fri, my dad also explode at my nephew cos of his unserious-ness... Then saturday, he was like testing my patience too~ WTH! Tis boi is unique.. UNIQUE-LY MISCHIEVOUS.....

So I actually went for a nature walk at Kent Ridge name Hort Park with my family... Saw alot of nice beautiful flowers, greens & trees... Was out at sun for 4hrs & all my family members got a sunburn.... I tink its been sometime that i went under sun liao.... Felt really different out in the sun....Vitamin D is taking action~ Took quite a numbers of pics... will update after i load....
Nature is sOooo beautiful...



Oh ya... Today is Suling & Leon's filming day...
Wondering how is their result oredi? Especially suling... Must be doing great rite.... Got to noe from Pearl tat the filming is at Marina Sq in noon & at night they will be proceeding for steamboat @ Bugis.... I'm not joining for both session as i'm too camera shy & dun like tis kind of publicity on tv even a split seconds oso dun wan.... As for steamboat, i tot of joining but i have a major praying session today at 8pm & somemore i'm vegetarian today... Felt abit guilty that i'm not able to join to witness her brand new change... I hope she is not angry lo... I called her just now but she is too busy to talk to me cos she is doing her make-up preparing for the filming... Heard her disappointed tone when i told her that i'm not going for steamboat.... Hope that she is not angry cos i haven tell her that i'm going for praying... hmm~ But i spoke to the male lead "Leon" cos he is done liao.... He say that Suling is extremely pretty wor... Manage to speak to Suling awhile & she even told me her make-up & outfit can get champion for Miss Singapore liao... KekeZ!! I guess she must be pretty stunning today... =)
Will wait for photographs... Cos i tink there are lots of photographers there bah.... hehe! Oredi told pearl to take more liao...
I tink i will meet Suling tis week cos its been a long time that i 've since her liao... Wana see her with my own eyes... =) Wondering when is she free to let me treat her a meal for apology of her disappointment... Gotta chk with her tonight or tml....

爸爸,妈妈一样好

visited baby daphne & mummy jocelyn yest nite.... daphne is sOoo cute, sOo lovely, sOoo soft & sOoo sleepy too... =) She is like a sleeping beauty cos she was sleeping so soundly tru out my visit regardless of all kinds of sounds, laughter or even shaking... Gd sleeping skills she have wor... But nvm la... Watching her sleeping also feel that she is cute... Keke!
Will visit her again during her full month... By then hopefully can play wf her liao... =)

Glad to see both of them healthy & happy... Daphne is so xinfu to have to many people to look after her & dote her... Mummy jocelyn look abit tired but still as bubbly... She was complaining to me about her confinement... She claims that it's sOooo many ginger!! No choice mah... Not nice oso gotta eat cos all these is good for ur health... Heard from elderly that u gotta gain back as many nutrients as possible during confinement if not u will have alot of side effects de... So mummy jocelyn ah... at the moment tahan abit k... After confinement then we go have some nice food k...

After visiting, felt that mummies are so wei da, so brave... So gan dong u noe...
No wonder my daddy always tell me tat a child's birthday is a mummy's most suffering day...
I tink thats y there is this song 世上只有妈妈好... anyway, 爸爸也一样好 la...
[maybe shld compose a song for daddy too~ so far dun hav songs for daddy hor....??]

Anyway, my cold war with mummy ended liao... Forget about it a few days later liao... =)
Not forgetting tis month 21st is mummy's birthday... Wondering how to celebrate.....

[Thanks daddy for lending me his car even though he is going out yest... =) my 1st time to drive alone to different locations within time frame... 1st time to drive alone at night... 1st time to drive at peak hour... 1st time to meet traffic jam... 1st time to pick & send fren back... so many 1st time... but glad that eveything went smoothly~ at least my passenger din grumble!]

feeling a sense of relieved~

Was feeling rather worried since september which i mention in my bloggie... But now is a total relieved after my fren called up..At least the outcum is revealed even though it is be exactly the same as expected... Phew~

Was discussing wf a fren about tis topic : Happy & Unhappy moments...
Human tends to feel that time past very fast when they are happy whereas for unhappy/sad moments, the time is crawling so slowly... Am i right? I think most people will feel the same bah.... There's is actually some psychological logic behind this de.... I remember i read it before when i was in secondary school... If i'm not wrong its Estein who found this... Anyway that doesn't matter... As i discuss with my fren, we have different views on waiting period for happy thing & unhappy things....

For my view, I wish that the waiting period to be longer as i feel that its a kind of enjoyment awaiting for happy stuffs & so call an experience or maybe reaction time for unhappy stuffs.... I explain to him that happy moment is always too short or it pass too fast till most people forgot to enjoy it when its happening... Thats y i like waiting period cos i can feel excitement in me, happily waiting & hoping for things to happen or before it actually happens... Hope keep us alive!! =) For bad/unhappy stuffs, I also prefer to wait as i need time to digest how to cope it... For me, i will get tempermental & narrow minded.. So usually i need time to look at things in different angles to find solutions to solve/console myself... Sometimes you may get to learn a lesson from it.... To me i feel tat's life!

My fren view, he dun like to wait for both happy & unhappy stuffs... He prefer both to happen soon even though how bad/unhappy is the event... He explain that at least the outcum is out & fixed rather than tru out the waiting period, you are either worrying every moment for bad stuffs or feeling too excited about the happy things may happen... He explain that the outcum will cum sooner or later, y not make known the outcum, get it done. Be it gd or bad & face it to prevent urself making wild guesses to add on worrying & daydreaming...

There's neither right nor wrong bah... Just different views.... Maybe its the difference between man & woman... Or maybe its just me who do not want to face facts so fast.... Hahaha! But anyway, during these period of worrying i did tink alot & considered alot of stuffs... Anyway, no more worrying liao....

But to be frank, at times i really like to hope for things to happen than making it to happen... I find it a rather bad habit!

[p/s : above views mention does not applys to EVERYTHING in iCe's life....]

i'm penny-less today cos i left my money & card at home~ hoping for people to pay for my expenses until i reach home tonight.... kekez!

a work-less day at work

ktv-ed & drink-ed alittle yesterday...
at least my craving is being attended!! Felt so much better after that... =)
even though its usual hangout but felt so different cos not driving.... Haha!
Totally different feel~~ so much at ease... kekeZ!

i'm actually in office now but not doing any work cos its all DONE!! All thanks to my colleagues for helping me... hehe! So my work for the day is to wait for my client to arrive lo... Haha! At times i find my job so simple & easy but there are times whereby things get sOoo complicated & problematic that you can't even get into sleep at night time... I may sound exaggerating but its realli true... Many people say that i put too much work stress on myself le thats y i get insomnia... I tink it may be partly true bah... But i just dunno how to not stress over work, especially in my situation... Anyway, dun wish to talk so much abt work.. At least today is an easy day... =)

Sitting on my chair.. Staring at daze... I recall that i have quite a number of stuffs i need to buy... This shopping list has been pending for quite sometime oredi but i just can't remember everything i go out... I even jot it down on my notebook but i just forget to it out to refer when i'm out... Forgetful me!!! i feel that as my age increase, my memory is getting from bad to worst... Resulting i used alot of "Post-It Pad" to remind myself for alot of things & causing the usage of my Post-It pad is very fast... I did classify them in different colour to determine their urgency mode... For example, Yellow for KIV stuffs, Blue for not urgent, Purple for not so urgent, Pink for super urgent... Actually so many colours i only notice Pink one cos its super urgent... The rest were there to deocorate my desk to make it more colourful & vibrant... Haha!! but of cos the colour classification still got use la... i tink i will only be stress-less if only a day i can't find any pieces of Post-It Pad around my desk... Haha!! i noe i'm dreaming~

i noe tis post is getting to no where.... just bear with it lo... just wana doing some talking/typing nia cos the rest of the day i may typing le ma....

Ok la.. Will update again if my client leave early... =)

Cheers!

bo liao~ing

feeling rather boring @ work except for the busy morning i had.... Both my electric & water supply gt problem my delicated electrician came to check out my office & at the same time PUB send people down to check out my water supply.... I ran up & down to make sure things are done nicely.... Tired me!! Tell u people.... The water from my tap is sOooo digusting till i dare not drink water today.... Cos my building was cleaning the water tank & btw i was nt informed at all... I tink everything was cause by the cleaning.... i tink i beta dun desribe much in here~ Although now is okay liao but i still dare not drink.... I went to buy 2 bottles of 1.5L of mineral water for consumption.... I hope the phobia will be gone within these few days if not i gotta bring my own water to work liao...

After the busy morning... I actually got no mood to work liao.... So i actually sit in another office to chit chat with my colleagues & at the same time see how is their work doing... Then after i came back to my office, i actually surf net & read bloggie tru out.... I read my frenz bloggie & oso my past entries.... Recall alot of things in the past... Feeling that i miss alot of things, alot of chances... being sad or happy, god or bad, i was smiling away when reading.... Din manage to read all anyway... cos I tink i had a feeling to stop....

the craving for ktv & alcohol is getting stronger...
having foul mood anyway.... Cold war with mum!!!

纯粹有些疲惫

hi all~ how's weekend? i had a tiring weekend... din manage to rest well enuff for the last few nights thats y so 疲惫 aka tired... Went shopping wf pearl on sat for her dress... She tried so on many dresses & in the end dunno which one to buy... Luckily she did manage to decide on one very nice one which i like alot too... Shopping made our legs so tired!! Tats y we oso spend alot of time sitting around for dinner & drinks & of cos chit chatting la... KekeZ! Quite sometime we din shop & eat like tis liao.... We should meet up & go out often k.... Maybe tis week can go Daiso? let me noe if u read tis.... Or any1 wana go?

Oh ya... Before i forgot... Congrats! Mummy Jocelyn had given birth to Daphne on fri noon & she claims to be finally she's out.... KekeZ! Glad that she had a smooth delivery... Take care of urself k... tis mummy is sOooo efficient tat she had oredi to upload daphne's foto on Sunday liao.... sOooooo cutie!! can't wait to see her =) i was tinking to visit her during her confinement... But dunno can visit during confinement de ma?

I tink i was tinking too much on babies liao & i dreamt tat i given birth to a baby boy last nite... I was busy playing with baby in my dream till i overslept for an hour... Nonsense dream!! Haha~

tat's about all~~

{trying to make an old pic to show tats its been long time i have my last alcohol}

[sudden crave for ktv... sudden crave for alcohol... sudden crave to la kopi... any1??]

dun feel good =(

i'm in dilemma~
i tink i'm too stress these days till i even dream of wat i bothering...
feeling down, feeling unhappy, feeling very unwell & uneasy~
feeling very extremely negative since i woke up tis morning...

i secretly tear when on my way to work...
Haiz~

wat happen to me??