it's been more than 1 year...

Its been very very long that I update anything about myself...... Cos I was BUSY BUSY BUSY... Really BUSY.... Everybody complain.... not jus myself.... :)

My apology for the neglect of everybody.... I really can't help it.... I hope everyone understands :)

I wonder how many people still read blog... I admit i have not been reading until i forgot my password & login ID... Hahhah!

But what triggers me to write again.... its the old reason.... This afternoon I have alot of things in my mind so though of jotting down but I still seem to find any place to do that..... Until i recal iCyie Paradise..... :)

I was reading my posts back in 2009..... Seems like things only happen yesterday.... Hahaha!! All along, my topic are/will relate to the some old things... I realise its been 10 years.....

10 years & I still have the rapid heartbeat feeling when with him....Isn't it miracle?? I wana thank him for today cos yest I was merely telling him that I want to go JB to buy shoes and he literally request to bring me the next day. I was shock & happy. Initially he is going together with his friends to do car wash & etc but in the end he say he push his friend to other days cos not important... I was touched! Upon seeing him this morning, I can feel his tiredness but I tot it was just normal. I have no intention to shop ard cos I feel pai seh la.... So tot it will be a grab & go thing. But too bad, my shoe have no stock so he suggest that I look for other options.. U imagine a very tired man who just ended a 24hr work few hours ago without much peaceful rest shopping with you searching for you desired shoe... Giving you opinions at the same time telling you which one is beta.... I felt really blessed & blissful.... I'm serious! Someone who care for you, concern about you, put your word in the heart for 10years... And it's 2 way... Do you think it's Love? :)
That moment when I feed him pretzel that he bought for me, I feel really weird... I tink he felt weird too cos there was a moment of silence... I ignore the feeling cos I was enjoying to dote him and he did not reject anyway... :) Maybe he was enjoying too cos he totally forgot to do the most important thing before leaving JB....

Seriously, I dun dare to think too much....

In 1 week time, we will be in Macau at this time.... We are going on a holiday to Macau & HK for a trip... its been a long time I went holiday and this time round he requested... :) HOw can I resist.... Frenz ask me am I looking forward to it, I am really unsure.... But I know I will be happy la... Thats for sure... I named it a Love Trip :)

I duno am I doing the right thing?

I'm confused... Really confused...

He came back & I tot Tis time round it would be as neutral as it will be...
Seriously I'm wrong...

The comfortablity being with him is utmost strong & I really like tat.. And I felt tat he feels the same too... The same not just being comfortable but also the chemistry is still there... I tot it had faded as it's already so long way back but I was wrong... I tink he felt my ignorance too... Cos when I sense Tat things aren't right, I am the only one who needs control it...

I felt guilty to accompany him yesterday after so long... I shouldn't have let all these start all over again... Cos I know it would not bring to anywhere further...

But frankly, I like the at ease feeling when being wf him... Really love it!!

Thank u :)

Thanks for all the birthday wishes... Surprises.. Etc etc...

I really appreciates.... I'm not that type who know how to express my feelings to people... I hope u all understand...

Lastly, I wanted to thank someone important.. Someone who affects me alot... I wana say, I do not know is it on purpose or unintentionally... But I expected anyway... I just can't believe it... U did it......

Thanks for forgetting :)
I really feel better....

At last~

I feel so relieve now...

Finally I hav the courage to tell what am I thinking on my heart rather than keeping to myself... I have say how I actually feel about certain things which I usually dun like to share..

I guess I must have bottled too long... I have confused myself too much too...

Feel so happy now.. Gtg bed nw.. Sleepy~

nitezzz..

What u get is what u give

He is torturing me... Just like I always did... He is trying to make things very difficult for us. I do not know is it a sign of being revengeful or he really meant it.. I dunno..

Words he said tat day kept on lingering in my mind.. I believe I've heard the hidden msg. But I jus can't confirm hw true is it... Haha! I wanted to ask lots of things but he disallow me to ask. I have to found out the truth by myself. Shld I??

I really dunno what to do....

Argh~

I'm so stress up!!!

Hell!!!!!

Gong Xi Fa Cai :)

Happy CNY to my dearie frenz!!!!
Hope that u all had enjoyed the long holiday & collected lotsa lotsa of ang bao....
As for me, I had a busy CNY... Went to many places to do visiting.. Every night sleeping at 3-4am.. Super tired!!
Just started work yest & still in CNY mood.. Haha! Can't put myself to work mode till nw... I tink I'm nt the only one rite... kekeke~

Anyway, I've got a new present during tis holiday... An iPod touch!!! Tis is my 1stiPod :) so happy... These days I was considering whether to get iPhone or iPod Touch cos it seems fun & useful.. Haha!! But my handphone contract is only due
nxt yr plus I heard tat iPhone batt not lasting etc.. So I decide on iPod Touch.. But it cost $400+, tats y I din buy... But then, I've got it now & I'm blogging wf it nw :)
so happy... I guess this will be classified under the "Things I can't leave home without it"
Lovin it!!! :) (although I'm still learning how to use)
kekeke~